-_--_- FeYaPpLe -_--_- i'Ll bE tHeRe FoR u EvEn If U dOn'T nOe Me

Piggy's 21st Bday Present

2012-02-04T23:11:00.003+08:00

mysterious.. wad's tat?!??

dadah~~~ handmade heartshape from mr.choo.. made with effort, soul, love, sweat and etc etc etc..

Piggy's 21st Bday @ Hougang k-box wif Ajisen ppl

2012-02-04T21:54:00.026+08:00

28/09

see the room so big~~~~

singer in the making

wah! so many ppl came...

My little princess piggy~ *grin*

Bday gal~~ =D

Make a Wish~~

Piggy super cute mouth blow~~~

Piggy bag~

Awwww... Meow Meow i love u so much!!!

July ~ September 2011

2011-12-31T19:55:00.026+08:00

05/07
Fishing @ Hai Bin

piggy so strong... 1 hand can fish liao... =)

21/07
Marina barrage

hmmm... yummy~~~

popcorn popcorn!!

wheel of fortune

i want CHANEL!!!

arrrrr... y so heavy!!!

hahahaha~

weee~ up up in to the sky!!

Prawning @ haibin

harvest~

so many to eat...

impale the prawn~

31/08
swenson mooncake~

08/09
final destination @ bugis

12/09
Mid-Autumn Festival @ LRT

26/09
2 years anniversary~~~ couple tee!!!

@ crystal jade

when is the food coming??

hungry piggy!!! gonna eat them all!!!

yummy egg tart!!!! really crispy

har gao~~

@Uncle Leong

the king kong crab... yummy!

Giant Pincer!!!!

see the fullness of flesh... drip the essence of crab aka cream of crab!!

omg.. the meat is ................................. no words can describe...
the pincer flesh is more than my hand~~

the essence of the crab in the soup!! SUPER EXTREMELY RECOMMENDING!!!

Lets the feast begin!!!! =D

End of Third quarter 2011

April ~ June 2011

2011-12-31T12:48:00.057+08:00

1/04
Piggy is pregnant??? April fool~~~

11/04
vienna dinner... fatty fatty... (^(..)^)

06/05
eat @ Dian Xiao Er

see... got food so happy...:D

eat @ Xi Men Ding

drink @ starbucks

Mocha Frappuccino Blended Coffee @ starbucks...

turtle neck 1

turtle neck 2

11/06
ostrich n firefly

haha... see our not enough sleep face...

piggy on ostrich eggs...

safety first female model

safety first male model

24/06
Uncle Leong's CRAB

Yummy yummy!!!!

Man Tou

Same size~

Hungry Piggy~~

30/06
Ai Xin Bian Dan

With Soup

Without Soup (evaporate liao... -.-)

awww... see the messy hair from the hard work~~~~

End of second quarter 2011

January ~ March 2011

2011-12-31T04:31:00.014+08:00

15/01
Piggy pei me go watch Hebe concert... :) so sweet of u gal...

25/01
Piggy make a ai xin bian dan for me

not very appetising hor... but is from my dearest piggy so it is special to me... thz piggy for sharing ur brunch wif me... :)

26/01
We went to malaysia city square walk walk... shopping eating shopping eating... and before going back singapore... kbox time...

31/01
Piggy help me celebrate my bday... awww... (u have photos ma?)

4/02
Piggy accompany me go grandparents' houses... hehe... after meet parents is grandparent... then next time maybe great grandparent liao...

13/02
Went to RWS see flower exhibit... see gal gal in nice nice dress... :)

20/02
I make rice box for piggy... and piggy finish everything... i cook yummy food... :)

28/02 ~ 03/03
Went to Genting wif piggy... lovey dovey... cold cold de weather... but wif u gal it always so warm in my heart... :)

(too many photos... go facebook see...)

04/03
Watch movie and K-box at Nex

09/03
We went swimming at hougang... hehe...

20/03
home cooking...

haha... same pose... no wonder we are a couple... :D

stir fried duo miao

steam cod fish

steam 3 eggs (egg, salted egg, century egg)

roast chicken thigh

assam soup

happy family

End of first quarter 2011

My Love - Hebe

2011-12-28T20:26:00.007+08:00

歌手：Hebe 专辑：My Love

如果你被她傷得很痛
請感謝她好心折磨
如果你對她感到愧疚
請感謝她慷慨淚流

在我們相遇相愛之前
多虧有她讓你成熟

如果你現在孤獨寂寞
請感謝這美麗等候
如果你還在為愛犯錯
請感謝還沒找到我

要走完每個曲折路口
我們才懂愛是什麼

Wu~~My Love Wu~~My Love

如果慶幸我值得擁有
請感謝我被放棄過
如果欣賞我堅強溫柔
請感謝那珍貴傷口

在我們相遇相愛之後
遺憾都會變成收穫

Wu~~My Love Wu~~My Love

等我們終於緊緊相擁
所有苦難會甜美結果
我們就耐心漂流
愛會來的在對的時候

Wu~~My Love Wu~~My Love
Wu~~My Love Wu~~My Love

Going to new year le

2011-12-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

okie... i shall post more next yr... :)

show show

2010-06-09T16:33:00.000+08:00

3 weeks off... till 20th June... self declared... haha... wanna watch 射雕英雄传，神雕侠侣，天龙八部 and 倚天屠龙记... this 4 is continuous... think got another 1... 雪山飞狐... need to check out... haha... so busy... watching 神雕侠侣 now... last time will read the novel... now become smarter... watch the show... sit back and relax... got action somemore... and 3D effect... better than reading and imagining... haha...

laopo have chicken pox... just nice start her 2 weeks school break... can use this 2 weeks to rest... at least wun miss school that much... cannot eat alot of things... everyday porridge and bread... kanna complained... takeaway fish soup also cannot... very kua zhang... so exaggerated...

But rest so long also abit sian half... too free... lol... and kanna call back for reservice liao mid dec... going to miss Xmas i supposed... lol... gonna train up abit... especially running... haha... slacking too much liao... but too bad didn't grow any fat... still so slim... hehe... =P

aquarius

2010-03-12T02:14:00.005+08:00

AQUARIUS MAN

Hot-hearted man who likes to do things his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of its outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be "patient", even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won't be with him for long.

A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with "Love". He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy.

He hardly lies except if he thinks it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lies he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty.

Even he is a high and self confident type and centers his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten, but you did not. Believe him that he is very sorry and give him another chance.

Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love". He is the type who gambles anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he likes to overpower this type of people to assure that he is more superior.

He likes to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meets a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he will act as if he never has love like this before. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could fall in love again with another girl and act again like he never has this kind of love before. He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is "excitement" and "Love goes on".

my life

2010-03-12T02:12:00.009+08:00

Where is my life? when is there in 24 hours is my life allocated. 6pm ~ 9pm? after 12am till sleep? off day?

i off day, i go find u... u off day, i go find u... i finish work, i go find u... u finish work, i go find u... and cannot say i am lazy to go find u... though i can dun go find u... just not supposed to tell u the real reason (lazy ? or perhaps i just plan to have time for myself). Even so, i fetch u home willingly... so dun think too much... not as a duty or obligation... but because i really wan to see u... and every hour, min and sec with u is well spent and precious to me... as much as time playing dota... and doing my stuff... which is the bad side for u...

perhaps i define things too clearly sometimes. How i spend my time in this case. When i am with u, my focus is u... when i am home, my focus is my computer... when i am at work, my focus is work. hence, i hate it when ppl call me when i am with u... as much as when i am working, ppl call me and make me do other work which should be done by themselves... stupid jammy... sorry but i really find it hard to multi-task...

wat more is ppl say u love me more than i do... i dun noe how they judge it and i am still in doubt... it really hurt to hear ppl say i love u less than u... coz i wan to love u more... yes it is nice to be loved more... and it a blessing to be love by u... it hard to judge who love more coz there is no instrument or system to calculate it... but i dun see how u managed to do that more than me? it just makes me wonder how u did it... i wan to learn from u... at least show me some evidences powerful enough to let me swallow this subjective opinion of others...

being truthful is also wrong... but i doubt u wan me to lie... i also not good at lieing anyway... truth hurts coz it not nice to hear... but i think it better than making ppl wonder whether how much i said is truth when i sound like lieing or actually lied... at least u will be able to trust every word i say... coz it is truth... not some simple sweettalk...

this is not a complain. but how i feel about things are right now. still trying to multi-task.
lastly, i am a aquarius...

Awww

2010-02-02T00:52:00.000+08:00

i have a feeling, i feel so loved.

so glad i fell, to fall in love wif u

and lucky to have sense of touch, to be touched by u

HOLE?

2010-01-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

today my finger accidentally poke on my dear's hole... and caused much pain and discomfort on her... i am sorry dear... lol... first time is like that de... next time i will be more gentle on u...

anyway recently been very occupied by my work... need to post and upload photo regarding signages my company install... hence have little time to give my dear attention she deserved... awww... dear have been very very understanding and sweet to me as usual... love her so much... coz she is always so cute and kawaii neh!!!

PS: navel hole...

I have never been to me - S.H.E

2010-01-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

Artist: S.H.E Album: 青春株式會社

Hey lady, you lady
cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother
and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about
the things you'll never do
But,
I wish someone had a talked to me
like I wanna talk to you.....

Ooh I've been to Georgia and California
and, anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
and we made love in the sun
but I ran out of places
and friendly faces
because I had to be free
I've been to paradise
but I've never been to me...

Please lady, please, lady
don't just walk away
'cause I have this need to tell you
why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me
still living in your eyes
won't you share a part
of a weary heart
that has lived million lies.......

Ooh I've been to Nice and the Isle of Greece
while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo
and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings
and I've seen some things
that a woman ain't supposed to see.......
I've been to paradise,
but I've never been to me.......

Hey, you know what paradise is? It's a lie. A fantasy we create about
people and places as we'd like them to be.
But you know what truth is?
it's that little baby you're holding and
it's that man you fought with this morning
the same one you're going to make love with tonight
that's truth, that's love.........

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
that might have made me complete
but I.....I took the sweet life
I never knew
I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring
the subtle whoring
that costs too much to be free....
hey lady......
I've been to paradise......
but I've never been to me.........

I've been to paradise
but I've never been to me....

I've been to paradise
but I've never been to me.

dearest laopo

2010-01-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

u are always so cute and beautiful... kawaii neh... although we almost meet each other everyday... the time just some how is nv enough... think i have said this many many time... lol... but i can't feel it getting any better... missing her too much...

anyway glad i feel this way... haha... if i dun miss her means my love have fade i believe... so though it hard to bear, it is a sweet-in-bitter feeling... =)

You Or Me?!?

2010-01-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

currently my dear dear at my house..
guess wad we doing???
HAHHAHHAs...
don tell u..
no lah, my dear dear is concentrating on her tml's test..
SSSsssHHHHHhhh...
dont disturb
BUTTTTTtttt
im so bored!!!

sign off by:
Suyun =)))

letter of apology

2010-01-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

Dear suyun,

Recently I have been busy with my work and game. Long time no play so a bit over do. really paisei. Hence unknowingly I have neglect you. So poor thing. But you have always been very understanding and patient. Haha. Gal u have done well, I am so proud of u. keep it up. There more opportunities to show ur virtue of patience in the future. =P

Love
Teckpeng
Your boliao boyfren

爱我的资格 - S.H.E

2009-12-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

歌手：s.h.e 专辑：青春株式会社

把手放了
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会在撑

真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯

我们的爱跟着你小的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚

你对我多好
多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我只有我
爱本来就该独一无二

为你伤心
多一点少一点
流下的眼泪
都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了

time on hold

2009-12-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

the time together is always not enough no matter how early or how soon we try to meet... how we wish the time will stop or at least slow down... for every moment spent is so precious and sweet... more than sugar itself...

love u suyun

愛很簡單 - 陶喆

2009-11-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

忘了是怎么开始也许就是对你
有一种感觉忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你真的很简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

i love you
无法不爱你 Baby
说你也爱我
i love you
永远不愿意 Baby 失去你

不可能更快乐只要能在一起
做什么都可以虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心让爱变得简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

i love you
我一直在这里 Baby
一直在爱你
i love you
yes i do
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑
oh no
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do

i love you
我一直在这里 Baby
一直在爱你
i love you
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利

from one to ten equal me and you

2009-11-01T16:51:00.005+08:00

Adapted from the song
1到10等于我和你

一(1)段情
两(2)颗心
三(3)个字
是(4)我爱你
无(5)聊时就
溜(6)出去
期(7)待每天在一起
巴(8)不得粘着你
就(9)这样的不分离
十(10)全十美的爱情
从一到十等于我和你

(1) want u now
(2) to love me
(3) treat me good
(4) for ever
(5) find love hut
(6) sit inside
(7) several cups of milk tea
(8) egg pudding let u choose
(9) nite is sweet everyday
(10)then kiss u good bye on your lips
from one to ten equal me and you

hurt

2009-10-27T20:16:00.004+08:00

perhaps this is the first ever quarrel wif laopo... monday didn't go as well as planned... (hopefully a bad start have a good ending...) and it all started there... the one that hurt u the most is always the one that matter to u the most... and i noe i hurt ur feeling...

i am someone who seldom lie... and that is when being too honest is distasteful... though u know i didn't mean it, it just didn't sound too good to the ear... i thought u are used to it... i just ASS-U-ME... (making an ASS out of U and ME...) to add on to it, i didn't even realise it... i am really sorry...

communication is what make relationship last... to know how each other feels, and views things differently... helping us to sees things in others ppl shoes... we need to be reasonable about our expectations on our love 1... hopeing them to strike for better or improvement is good... but are ur love 1 comfortable with YOUR wish? achieving OUR wish is better than attaining YOUR wish...

communicate in a calm manner... when things get heated up, give each others some time and space to cool down the heads... be tactful with words... using words are simple and cheap... but yet, sadly, it can be the most powerful weapons anyone can use...

lastly, pls communicate... the worst things that could happen is no communication... hurting ppl feeling is better than just close 1 eye... even 2 eyes... coz he/she is someone u are going to spend the rest of ur life with... if u can't stand it now... i doubt u can stand it for the rest of ur life... loving a person is to give and take... yes... i agree... but there is a limit... if you are not going to say it now and do something about it, then forever hold ur silence...

loving someone is to love the whole package... be it the person, his/her way of life, circle of fren and family... everything is the words... if u can't change someone to suit urself, then change urself to suit the someone... if still cannot, look for another 1... still cannot, stick to urself... still cannot, eat some worms...(laopo... i think u dun understand the worm part... it is a song... haha... i will sing it for u...)

sticky

2009-10-20T01:24:00.001+08:00

at work... msg her now and then to know how she is doing... then complain to each other about our school and job are... lol...

after work... get home to rest abit and prepare to see dear later at nitez... we always sit at our 'love hut' for a while... okie... for at least an hour... but she never say she is tired... then i will see her to the lift and...

at home we will chat online... though my connection is always giving me problem... but dear is always patient and wait for my reconnection... and say 'Wheeeeeee'... haha... forever so cute de this gal...

sometimes i can't help but feel whether i am being too sticky or not... about the way i do things... is like for me everyday is revolving around my laopo suyun... slowly, it have became a daily rountine for me... coz i wan to spend every moment with her... and it always touches me to know she love my company and appreciate... it make my effort worthwhile... not sure how long it will last... all i know is that wat i have done is all worth it...

going to be a month le... going to be 2 monthsle... 6 months soon... and 1 year doesn't seem too far away anymore... 2 years also... lol... for now we are doing fine... though the peacefulness do make me worry sometimes... wondering if we will ce able to survive though a storm if it was to happen...

human are never content wif wat they have... give a inch ask for a metre... but i have start to learn to be satisfy with wat i have... the mindset of dun expect anything in return... 没有希望，就没有失望... hence anything u gain or receive in return, be it small or big, become a bonus to u...

trust is the word that best describe wat all couples should have on their partners... luckily me and dear have it on each other... wahahaha... think dear trust me more... awww... sweet rite... so... just believe in ur love 1 and dun think too much... or rather dun expect too much...

for someone to be and behave like oneself is as hard as to accept ppl for who he/she is... even bad habit can become something special about the person... learn to accept ppl for who they are coz no one is perfect... and everyone is unique... and u will see the beauty of ppl and wat life presents to u...

appreciate wat u have lost... cherish wat u have now... and treasure wat u will have in the future...

会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

2009-10-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多你可以等我
以前我不懂得未必明天就有以后

Chorus:
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱需要依赖我
我就装不晓得自由移动自我地过

Chorus

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

老婆 - SHE

2009-10-18T20:52:00.001+08:00

To my only 老婆... CHUA SOO HOON... very understanding and cute 老婆... sayang... haha... 1 more week is a month liao... time spent wif u is never enough... love to have ur presence... love to have ur company... love to hold ur hand... love to see u smilez... simply just love everything about u... okie cya later... my 老婆...

从昨天到今天还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边
爱的心痛的心等待的心
因为有你们的拥抱我很放心

当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有点茫然迷惑
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

X 2

lalalala ~~
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

Where'd you go - Fort minor

2009-10-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

open my playlist and heard this nice song... like the tune... especially the chorus... but not the lyric... =p

enjoy...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

Moody...

2009-10-06T03:43:00.003+08:00

my mood rule over my thinking... sweet talk is sugar coat... be it true or false... dunnoe wat i am saying... just leave me alone... i hate myself... i will be fine...

dunnoe wat i wan... too much explanation... too much understanding... too much trouble... it not easy... it not hard either... take things easy... relax... take things slowly... dunnoe wat i wan... making things seemed so complicated...

if things can be black and white... yes and no... hate the in between... coz as good as no answer... might as well dun say... hate doubt... hate possibilty... hate no answer...

love to think... but sometimes thinks too much at the wrong time... hate to give excuses... but better than left it as it is... like no answer... hate to guess... but love it if guess rite... human are weird animal... human is an animal...

cannot sleep but tired... mind still thinking... so it seemed... guy love the nothing box... not thinking of anything... mouth open... wait for things to happen... so passive...

i wonder how... i wonder y... yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky... but all that i can see... is just a yellow lemon tree... i turn my head... up and down... turning ~ turning around... but all that i can see is just a yellow lemon tree...

apologizing... should i apologize...? should i publish to let u all noe? should i share wif other? might need to explain coz didn't write properly and very

writing to urself and dun public-ize is better than writing to the public but have no self... wat ever... can't be bother...

Dear Galfren Baby Princess XiaoSuYun

2009-10-01T21:46:00.001+08:00

almost 1 week from the day u agreed to be my galfren... thz for giving me the chance... love u more and more... day by day...

u have been a wonderful fren... a fantastic galfren... and i believe the perfect wife in the future...

everyday i look forward to talk to u... though i dun have much to say... but u have been very understanding... however, but u have also learn the art of irritating me too... zzz... haha... though annoyed, i can't bear to get mad at u... coz u say u love to see me stress... haiz... i also 认命 le... haha... becoz i love u...

still remember the first time i hold ur hand... the moment was great... feeling the connection of our hearts... but i am so scared u cannot take it... haha... no la... it was a sweet moment... sweeter than sugar itself... so sweet that i am proud to walk down the street... wif u by my side...

still remember the first time i have ur head on my shoulder... and i smell ur hair... (mushy... but still have to write...) a very short moment... but yet i know i wan to be the shoulder for u to lean on... a place that will always be there... just for u...

still remember the first time u bought me a dessert... mango... zzz... i will remember that... the soup is nice... that's all... haha... u are just cute la...

still remember the first time u bought me a soy bean drink... it seemed to be lack of surup but yet it is so sweet... sweet wif ur tender love and care for me... knowing that i might be thirsty... awww... be envious ba ppl...

every single moments to me is a memories... be it bad or blissing... the above is just examples of time we have shared together wif each other... even a simple thought of missing each other is a memory... coz at that moment in time, i have u wif me... in my heart...

at the beginning

2009-09-29T07:53:00.000+08:00

for my dear... lol... this is just the beginning... we still have a long way to go... but let walk down this road together... keeping going coz it will be a wonderful journey... =p

2009-09-21T02:02:00.017+08:00

I am going to say some emotional stuff...

Loving u have brought me a purpose in my life...
Okie... not that before that i dun have a aim, and living my life meaninglessly... just that...
Very fortunate to have you in my life
Eventhough we have barely known each other though this 3 short months

Since when i am not sure...
Unknowingly, i began to like u, and eventually love u
You have become part of me, part of my life
Unable to control my feeling toward you
Nevertheless, i told myself to take it slow... understanding come first...
...

Whatever there is for us in our life
In time of happiness, sorrow, anger and watever i can't think of... (its not funny... =p)
Let share our feeling and thoughts...
Let enjoy, endure, tolerate and live it through together...

To me, u are my princess...
Hopefully, i am ur prince...
If we were to be fated and destinated for each other,
Suyun, will u be my gal fren?

Though i ask u to take ur time to consider it,
Every day, every minutues, every seconds, i hope u will suddenly say 'yes, i do'
Making my dream come true...
Perhaps the above is abit to exaggerating... haha...
Tempting and sweet talking is part of the wat ppl in the beginning always do...

You have taken away my heart away
Only leaving a heartless me behind
Understand y i am bad now? haha

Talking to u over the phone...
Overwhelming wif anxiety and yet sweet...

Bringing you out to watch 2 movies at 1 go...
Enjoyable and yet scary...

Messaging every nite on MSN...
You are the only 1...

Give me a chance to love u
As a boyfren...
Loving u till the flower wither
Forming our own family
Raising up our kids
Eventually...
Next to each other... lie our tablets... T_T
? (coz we all dun noe what will happen next... that y it is a '?')

Hard to write... is wat i thought at first...
Actually, it is not that difficult after all... coz i am talented... no la...
Having you as my motivation, make it really easy to find words to match...
After i have finish the post... are u ready to give ur reply? hehe...

missing

2009-09-15T07:34:00.005+08:00

need no purpose... need no reason... need no timing...

just simply

missing u

even though u are never missing from my heart...

before or after

2009-09-13T03:15:00.007+08:00

the following in red supposingly is the last paragragh... coz i feel that prehaps i shouldn't waste ppl time... to make ppl read to the last then discover the main topic...

back to the qns... whether i am influence or not... when is the start is the main issue... before ajisen gossip about us or after... i can say that i am looking forward to see u at that time... perhaps u are the only gal at that time... perhaps if there were two gals instead of one... i can give u an answer immediately just now coz it is definitely either 1... anyway after thinking so much... i feel that it is not the problem anymore... becoz now i have feeling for u...

i can't lie that i have doubt at that moment... it a critical qns... and i noe how i reply it will have a drastical effect on how things will go... i can cover through it but... it not how i feel i should reply... i dun wanna lie... i really have doubt... let be frank...

all the things i tell u is true... at least i believe it to be true... in other words, truth, is wat i am telling u... fact... and not story... now come another problem of sweet talk... which in my context is making things sound nice... which i feel have the element of making things sound fake... believe it or not is up to u to interpret... i am telling u wat i feel is truth... at least... i noe i wun regret saying it...

just like i say regret telling wenda u are coming later coz it show that i took notice of u... i dun regret telling him if he is just teasing me and ends there... but regret telling him when he start 'helping' me by spreading wat i said... which i think have make thing complicated and embarrassing for u and i... after noeing u more becoz of what have happened... i feel that prehaps it is not so bad after all... since i managed to confess to u earlier... so call make things simpler... since u already noe i like u... or so i assume... but apparently u didn't believe it till i tell u it is true... it doesn't matter, it only a matter of time for u to noe it...

i told u i need time... coz things is happening too fast... i noe i need time... then u might ask 'y tell me that u like me in the first place, then telling me u need time?' it is so hard to lie to the whole outlet that i have no feeling for u... perhaps i am being selfish to take the easy way out... i am sorry... but i rather hear the ppl teasing about wat actually happened and not gossiping... i feel that i should give u a 交待 about the incident... about whether it is true or not... still... things is happening too fast than i expected... hence i need the time...

What make me like u? prehaps i have more feeling for ur watch more then u... but the watch really look good on u... perhaps i like ur tanned-skin more then u... prehaps u i like ur height... there is so many 'prehaps' that make me like u... when auntie mei ask me wat i like about u i dun noe how i answer her... coz i really dun noe y i like u... the feeling now is definitely stronger than before...

a sensitive issue i am going to address on, i assume u are concern about ur weight... it is a very sensitive issue for all gals, again i assume, coz i believe it is true... now i am telling u are okie to me... have more confident in yourself... physical appearance is the first impression gals will have on guys... true enough... and it is vice versus... i am concerned about my first impression to gals as much as u... u are concern about fat i am concern about skinny... whether u are or not going to do anything about it u have my moral support... as long as u dun hurt urself... anyway u are already sensible to think for urself...

i dare not use the words love... coz i noe i dun love u... if i love u, i noe i most likely will give up alot of things for u... my freedom, my lifestyle and many more i lazy to catagorize... coz my freedom is to be with u... my lifestyle is how to live with u... everythings is u... but i have not yet reach the stage... not seeing u will cause me to miss u definitely... but now between going out wif my fren or talk to u... i will choose my frens...

watever it is... ur first impression to me have passed... wat making couple stay long together is more on the inside than the outside appearance... that y i need time to understand u... both my ex gal fren didn't last because of communication... or rather lack of communication... perhaps our lifestyle and the way we see things is too different... (not that we need to think alike to be together... but rather the ability to noe how ur other partner view problems or rather matter or issue... even if it is opposite from wat u feel is right...) but we are too young to think so far as to be in ppl shoe... that y i can't understand y my gf do things in that particular ways at that time... as much as she dun not about my style... this i assume... we were simply too young... i have learnt my lesson...

i assume that feeling of liking is created when one person start thinking of another ppl... the more u think, the more u love... that y after writing so much or rather thinking so much about u as i write the feeling just get stronger... sweet talk again... but it really how i feel... i assume as u read ur feeling also increase... toward bad or toward good i dun noe... but prefer the later obviously...

if anything i wrote is unclear or wish to noe more info pls tell me i will gladly answer u... but the answer might not be wat u expected... coz truth can be hurtful but i can promise i dun lie to u... and i really hope u will ask me questions... at least i have the chance to clarify things...

(this is how this post is created... or rather most of my posts... i write as my thought flow... i hit a end or so call end, i read wat i have wrote... and try to add on and edit phrasing and sentence structure... then read again... process repeat itself till i feel okie... till i get sick of reading or writing again whichever come first... then i stop...)

unicorn gundam

2009-09-09T00:03:00.002+08:00

here is the gundam i bought... woo... *clap clap*...

it can transform between this two modes... as i was told... well... we shall see...

anyway been pestering leslie to pass me back the model... haha... can't wait to start building... and now it is with me...

if u thought i am building now u are wrong... coz i am typing now as u see... okie lame... the model need proper tools to cut and file so as not to damage and it will come out nice... zzz... so still need to wait till i have the tools zzz... okie patience is a virtue... at least i can see my toy face to face... ^_^... hi toy... i am going to cut u into pieces soon... wait for me k... wahaha...

see u tml...

memories

2009-09-07T01:06:00.002+08:00

just read some of my past posts... haha... so glad i blogged... though not very often... haiz...

time have surely pass us by quietly... the events seemed to happen yesterday... memories was easy triggered from the blog... (somehow... my gammer and phrasing a bit weird today... can't seem to write properly) been through all kind of feeling... (lazy to write the feeling) and suddenly so emo... lol...

low spirited... zzz...

missing ms cloud... just missing... one day only and i start missing her... u didn't eat the mochi... prehaps too busy ba... (my guess is rite)... i also forget to tell u before lunch... so u can eat during lunch...

and now u came online... ms cloud...

just bought a gundam to fix... haha also dun noe wat make me go and buy it... so exp... told leslie to help me bring home... coz i going back work... lol... but now quite anxious for next sun to come... going to collect it from leslie... maybe fix together wif him... we got same taste so bought the same model... but he is going to spray it black he said... watever... i keeping mine as original...

hmmm... when things come easy, ppl tend to take it for granted... that y things we work hard for have more value and we will cherish it... haha...

wonder how long will i stay in ajisen... have thought about leaving quite alot of time... but have told myself it was just spur of emotion... need to think twice before regretting... hmmm... let talk about the kitchen members...

steven... said to be a nice leader coz other leaders are not so easy going to their subordinate... to me his style is as long u can complete ur task properly he would disturb u... but i hope he would speak up more about wat he is not happy about... he like to talk to himself the secret or quite openly talk behind ppl back... reminded me of russell peter's father "somebody is going to get hurt real bad... somebody... i think u noe that person... but i am not going to tell u who... somebody"...

haoze... man with the ability... but dun wan to use... or lazy to use... he can work fast... but he choose to slack if he can... trying to stay away from doing order... or perhaps he is training us? giving us more chance to get use to working in peak hour... i dunnoe... he do the purchasing... he make the sauces... he basically specialise in doing the behind stuff...

mike... my so called master... learn alot from him... he is fast worker... and he prepare he stuff before hand so he would fumble during peak hour... still unable to learn this skill... i still got long way to go... i need to say the preparation is not for himself nia... but is the entire kitchen... meaning... everything needed to do business is prepared....

dun feel like writing anymore... coz cannot think properly... perhaps too tired... zzz...

this is for u... ah wei... also a very detail guy... like mike... future leader to be... seriously... hmmm... everyday change his pant and shoe before and after work... and do put napkin or watever that thing is call into his hat... so give me an impression of clean guy... but when he do noodle, he floor is usually quite dirty... perhaps he sweep the 'leftover' to the floor? this is my guess... haoze quite piss off with it everytime... lol... and he sweep it clean for ah wei... funny...

dun wanna write anymore...
12.31am

2009-09-05T11:06:00.003+08:00

saw this 2 cute children @ the roof top of vivo... not sure if u can see their boot... haha... apparently their parents came here prepared...

the cloud above sentosa... taken from inside 'one page' book store... it might seen a bit dark coz it taken from the inside... actually it is damn hot outside... though it rain in the morning...

watched 'the time traveller's wife'... (the content i shall not discuss... go read review or watch some trailer urself... ) the director have done well by making every parts or the movie interesting... in the sense that, from the start to the end it all interrelated so can't miss any parts of the movie... because henry the main lead time travelled time to time... expected it to make me wat to cry... but it did not... so minus pt... overall the movie is okie... it is more informative then dramatic... like telling a story... can't really feel to be inside the atmosphere... hmmm... good introduction and ending... 'u nv know when he will appear...'

commitment

2009-09-05T03:12:00.004+08:00

how much am i willing to commit myself into it, i ask myself? perhaps i am too used to be single... perhaps i have doubt in how much i am able to give up on my existing lifestyle... too used to have freedom... too used to be able to spend my time as i want it uninterupted... having another person into my life is not going to be easy for me to adjust... mentally and physically... though i noe it will come sooner or later... perhaps i am still not ready that y i have the doubt... still not ready to accept the changes in my life...

is not about finding the rite gal... is just that i dun even have confidence to sustain a relationship, how am i going to have the right to be think about whether she is rite for me... to be judging other... to judge if she is the one for me...

ppl say that it is okie to fail in relationship, at least u learnt somethings from it... ya true... then i suppose i should just love every gals i see till i find the right 1... zzzz... how many hearts u wan to break? how many ppl time u wan to waste? easy said than done... try and u might success... if u dun try, then u fail definitely... that y teachers always tell us shade at least something if we dun noe the correct ans during MCQ qns... hopefully we will hit lottery... zzz

i am not young... though ppl nowaday normally marry at their late 20s... i also wan to have my own partner... i also wan to have my own family... someone to grow old wif...
perhaps i am just afraid to fail hence afraid to start... i dun noe it myself...

need more time to think it through... need more time to understand each other... more like need more time to be mentally prepare on my side... weighting the pro and con... solving if 1+1=2... perhaps i am just being perfectionist... wanting everything to go as plan... wanting my relationship to be smooth sailing... well mr apple... nothing is perfect... and not everything is up to ur control...

thinking ar thinking... i am thinking too much again...

being wif someone is sweet... and at times bitter... or sour from eating vinegar... though it can be spicy when we become salty together... at least it is better than being bland... having each taste in moderation along our life is wat making love so interesting... haha... this last paragraph have nothing to do wif the above post, i wrote it due to my overflowing talent... i just like playing wif words... leslie is going to belittle my ability again if he see this... but i doubt he would bother to read my post without ppl telling him to do so... meaning, read and dun tell him... perhaps i am thinking too much again... who bother about telling other ppl... zzz... i have contracted steven's self-talking virus...

wa it is 3.30 am... zzz... slp...

My second off day

2009-09-03T00:03:00.006+08:00

the day ppl is working...

this is taken near bugis street... shown to me by leslie... see the 4 different coloured flat...cool huh...

this is a doll in a arcade machine @ iluma... lol... dirty mouse wif a fly... morale of the story "clean ur mouth after eating"...

just took this for fun... think is cute...^_^

didn't noe that there are so many valentine days... now we have more reasons to celebrate... cheers...

pan pacific

marina sq

leslie's position 1

leslie's position 2

leslie's position 3

close up

191919

when i was young...

2009-09-01T02:21:00.000+08:00

when i was young,
i want to grow up and be an adult soon... becoz adult seemed to have so much freedom... able to sleep late, able to go out anytime, able to buy things they like... and so many other privileges...

Now...
i noe things isn't as simple... privileges comes with price tags on it... freedom is because ppl have nothing better to do that y so free... lol... sleeping late is because 24 hours is not enough to use...

when i was young,
i thought that cornflake and milk taste great together until i try it and i regret it...

when i was young,
i thought that gal used pad because they can't control their pee as good as boy because guy have 'something' more to stop the flow...

when i was young,
i love going to my fren house to play computer game...

when i was young,
my father used drive me to my grandmas' house every sunday... after my family of 4 have our breakfast together... roti prata, macdonald, mince meat noodle...

when i was young,
i loved chinese new year... coz got hong bao... and nice food... now chinese new year is just another festival on the calendar to me...

when i was young,
i dun dress up myself...(coz i dun wear dress... lol... lame...) everyday is a get-out-of-bed look... no comb hair... no fashion sense... love slipper coz hassle-free... slip and go...

when i was young,
schooling is a drag... waste of time... now i miss the time with my fren...

when i was young,
i love taking bus 88 in the morning... i am afraid to cross to the other half of the canteen... i admired... now i wonder...

when i was young,
i am one of the tallest in class...

when i was young,
i love walking back home... love to run around...

when i was young,
when i smile, my eyes are gone... lol...

when i was young,
i have best fren, gd fren, close fren, fren, not gd fren, enemy... fav colour, fav food, fav drink... etc.

zzzzzzz... that all for now... going to sleep... blogging is not necessary aabout wat have i done today... but wat i have thought today... and about sharing... arbo y i blog... dotz...

2.20am... chiobu huh... not bad looking la... maybe in the past...

Freedom

2009-08-30T02:50:00.004+08:00

basically have lost the touch of time... now i have so much freedom that i think i am wasting my life away... though most of my time have been spend working and slping... the rest of time up to me to use... and i spent it on my com... playing kiddies games on facebook... and dota... arr... there got to be more meaning to my life... need to control the urge of uping lvl in game and use it to increase my knowledge instead...

recently i'm awe by the things happening around my friends... thz to facebook... (haha... the power of internet... making things accessibile within clicks of the fingers...) one thing for sure... everyone lead a diff set of life... its nice to see ppl grow... especially those that u have known for so long... haha... can't deny the fact we have all grown old... but at least we are still considered to be young...

actually i like writing but sadly i am lazy... lol... very contradicting... someone that is even lazy to even do something he like... can see how lazy i am... haha... maybe that y i am still single... lol... too lazy to properly go find a galfren... zzz...

hmmm... i think a lot... that y i like writing perhaps... i always want to write down my thought... that y i always have i notebook with me... (of course pencil as well... yes pencil and not pen... i didn't type wrongly... i prefer to write in pencil...) becoz life is beautiful... in the way life bring to u all kind of experience... life is beautiful becoz of time... it is wonderful becoz only for that period in time and space... that particular moment life in front of me is beautiful... and here come my cam... to take down the moment... but i dun bring the cam around wif me... though i dun mind bringing it around... dun noe wat i am saying... mixed feeling... hmmm.... wan to capture the moment but dare not becoz very sensitive sometime... sensitive in the way other ppl will see it... especially taking pictures of human... it will make ppl uncomfortable... imagine ppl out of no where suddenly take pic of me i also dun feel easy... get wat i mean? just too bad for human to be the second beautiful thing after nature...

once u start it hard to stop... everytime i write i tend to over-think... and go out of point... hence data keep coming to my head to process into infomation... (next time then i talk about the data and infomation relationship... another interesting topic... that is actually nothing much...zzz) thus, i have more and more to record down in words...

nvm... stop now... tml try to make myself write... or rather later... dotz...

the weather is warm today huh... going to shower then slp... maybe msg u tml if i am not lazy...

topic: committment, data info, love... jot down first... to remind myself to write about it... hopefully i can recall wat i am thinking now about the subject... coz i most probably will forget how i wan to answer the question... coz human views change as time goes by... this is yet another beauty which can be call fickle-minded...

STOP....

3.33am

lost of memory

2009-08-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

i actually forgotten how my father look like... someone that i am able to see everyday, someone so close to me by blood... this is the one of the scariest things that could happened in my life...

my memory of my father in just a shadow by my side... becoz i always get a glimpse of him wif a corner of my eye... since my eyes is always fixed on the screen in front of me as i play dota, or read mangas... i only know the presence of my father beside me but i didn't look at him... it has been like this day to day for god noe how long prehaps months...

it was until today when i went out shopping wif my mother that i finally look at my father face to face... i was stun for a sec for i almost didn't recognise if not for his standard purple polo-tee and light brown short... my parents talked for awhile while i spend some time looking at my father... seeing what age have done to him... i totally fail my duty as a son... to not even remembering his own flesh father... i have taken things for granted... unknowingly missing out details that can be so close to me...

father i am sorry...

compromise

2009-08-16T15:03:00.004+08:00

wat have u done today? if we can make everyday meaningful, we have live our life to the fullest... at least we have minimise regrets when we look back... in life, things don't go the way we want it to be... if we can't change the environment to suit ourselves, we will have to change ourselves to suit the environment... in other word, compromise, the process of give and take.

(the net currently have some seriously problem thank to the typhoon in taiwan... said to be the disconnection of a cable in the sea... hence connection will have to be done by passing through more servers or channels...)

会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

2009-07-23T13:23:00.003+08:00

歌手：梁静茹专辑：今天情人节

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多你可以等我
以前我不懂得未必明天就有以后

Chorus:
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱需要依赖我
我就装不晓得自由移动自我地过

Chorus

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

ORD - operational ready date

2009-06-15T22:15:00.002+08:00

okie finally ORD-ed... yeah... now finding job to do ... dun plan to study anymore coz think it a waste of time haha... or rather dun noe wat to study any more... my diploma also like just a paper coz i also not sure whether i am going into interior film or not... like very sian leh the job... haha...

today went to ajisen restaurant to fill in form for job applicant... work there before so a bit of advantage... the job not bad just the future not very bright... coz the maximum able to raise is like till $1800 nia as a retail manager... so... very dotz... but for the time being just make do first... get a job settle down first... better than rotting at home and wait for food and drink come to my mouth...

cherish wat u have

2009-06-01T00:05:00.005+08:00

there is so many times i wish i have a camera wif me... when the sky is so blue... when then sun is setting in the evening... but yet i lack the recording device... sad...

the world is so beautiful when u learn to appreciate every details in ur life... though the world is not perfect, it is unique in its own imperfection... if the world is perfect, then there is no area for us to improve...

i hate doing guard duty, but it is better than outfield...
i prefer to write in pencil, but having a pen is better than nothing...
the sky is getting dimmer, but at least there is still light as i write this down...

the half-cup theory... half empty or half full... it depend on how u wan to see it... it will be best if we can get what we want... but if we can't get what we wan, learn to appreciate what we have not lost... good and bad things always come together... but it is how we see things that make the difference...

if there is no crime we won't appreciate the police... if there is no darkness, we won't noe how important light is to us... if there is no pain or suffering, we won't noe how lucky we are...

i am glad that i can see because i can enjoy the scenery... i am glad i can hear because it tells me suffering is coming when the whistle blows... i am glad i can smell because char-mee simply smells so nice... i am glad i can taste because the canteen food is better than the cookhouse... i am glad i can feel because SOC and IPPT is so shag... i am glad i can think because i didn't realise i have missed so much until i start thinking about my surrounding and people around me... and most importantly what have i done in my life...

0035

multi-tasking...

2009-05-03T14:58:00.004+08:00

when u write, do u think? how well can the brain multi task? i think that we will all agree that human are able to multi-task... when we are doing things, our brain is thinking... as in now as i write, i am thinking about wat to write next... as in now that u are reading, u are thinking about how true is this...

or is it muscle-memory in my hand that continue to write as i think? in other words, my brain is solely thinking about wat to type next while my muscle-memory in the hand continue typing... maybe there is a movement brain and a thinking brain... or rather some part of the brain that is responsible for the movement, another the thinking...

then is it possible to think about two different subjects at the same time? if it is true, maybe we can increase it to three, and even four... duo-core and even quad-core brain...

in this era, it is not about thinking fast, but also about how many differents subject u are able to think at the same time... if i can think of two solutions in the same time as u can think of one, i will be more capable in the sense...

ORD mode

2009-04-25T18:50:00.005+08:00

the past week did a very strenuous exercise... so tiring i have to lie on bed in the afternoon almost everyday... less COS... the activity is so tiring that sometimes i even skip lunch for it... oops... dun tell my superior... hehe... it a very time consuming activity... but we all love it... actually the longer the activity, the more we enjoy it... it is none other than... u go guess it...

yawn... i am going to do it again...

post-NS

2009-04-19T13:17:00.003+08:00

so wat am i going to do after NS... alotz of ppl have been asking me... except my parents... hehe... think my frens are more concern about me then my parents... haha... prehaps i am too trustable that my parents need not care about me... wahaha...

anyway i planned to work as a chef... sound nice... but i noe the process is not nice... warm place... busy... temper throwing everywhere coz need to rush food out... so not very nice emotion...but somehow time flies... after that we are back to normal... it like there is a transition space between work and our normal life... such a thin line... u cross that line and its a no joke environment... serious mode switch on till the work is over... okie i tok too much le... i aquarius should think more instead of writing... dotz

zzzz...

recently saw alot of zzz-monsters... life is so zzz... sometimes just dun feel like doing anything... play game also zzz... meals also zzz... frens also zzz... weather also zzz... so hot as compared to taiwan... stay at home also will prespire... zzz...

taiwan pt 3

2009-04-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

280309/1908
suddenly feel like going back singapore... suddenly feel bit lost... lol... feeling like stranger....

the weather here is good... cooling all day long... but the infrastructure and technology available isn't as advanced as singapore... the cost of living is comparingly low... especially meals... hmmm... good for touring... but if need to stay long, need to go taipei ba... at least there is a city i more used to...

miss HEBE...

300309/1138
fking cold mission this morning... guess got 14 ~ 15 degree... zzz...

walked pass farm... the view was great... the crop swaying along wif the wind... able to hear children playing in the background... the afternoon sun was also not glaring, but yet warm, just nice to light up the atmosphere with its light touch of rays... as though having late afternoon sun, sightly before sunset, all day long... too bad we were not allow to carry camera... if not it will be nice to share the amazing scenery...

the journey was okie until we reach a hill, perhaps mountain... walking up is okie but not with heavy load, it is a torture... war is bad... especially for us who fight in the front line... dotz...

<')))))><

010409/1159
april fool day... first day of april... lol... doesn't matter... later tonite, we will be moving out for our last mission of the stupid ATEC... waste of time sia... not even interested... well let it over and done with... weather this few days quite cold... expect later to be the same... oh ya the load for this mission is fking light... hehe... but heard got mountain the climb... haiz sianz... watever... looking forward to get it over... ORD loh...

taiwan pt 2

2009-04-12T12:25:00.003+08:00

230309/1945
taiwan mountain is free 1... so many... behind my camp have already... need to climb slope, how to run up during PT... pain sia... too long didn't exercised... run for two consecutive days... different route but still need to climb mountain...

today not enough sleep, somehow last nite can't sleep well... zZZ
can't really think now... even if thought of something also dun noe how to paraphrase...

240309/2155
tml ATEC start... the day where all the 1 yr plus of outfield, training, suffering, knowledge and skill come to test... time to show how good ~~our~~ their unit are and the different in standard we they are able to attain as compared to any other units...

250309/2337
~~来去匆匆~~ 来去冲冲... the urinal here flush 2 time per usage... once the urinal detect a person it will flush, another time will be when the person goes off..

today done the easier sand model ever... coz got most of the model from second coy... so there is only minor touch up needed to be done... yeah... actually second coy can be the battalion sand model team... their quality is much more better than us and better teamwork between their team...

270309/1229
yesterday was sick... lucky didn't go outfield... now still dizzy but feeling much better.. at least my nose not runny like tap water le... company just return from outfield just now... now resting in bunk... heard the mission is tougher then the previous one... i also go sleep le... didn't sleep well due to the nose... zZZ

taiwan pt 1

2009-04-11T21:58:00.004+08:00

okie... i wrote somethings in my notebook i brought to taiwan... let share... wahaha... some of it is in chinese characters but i lazy to type... (actually is my chinese cannot make it... lotz words forget how to write le...)

120309/2050
the weather is cold. not as cold and windy as hengchun camp, but still cool enough... there is hot water available... shiok.. but the moment u are out from the cubicle, it isn't fun anymore. chill of the cold air evaporating from ur body send shiver down ur spine...

130309/1900
the ground of taiwan have 3 treasures... frog, snail and dog shit... all motionless if u get wat i mean... today started to cough. perhaps not used to the air... the air is rather thin, hard to breath. the weather today is not as cold as yesterday. no hot shower today... chill...

190309/0900
yesterday nite just came back from outfield... dusty place... eyes, nose and throat not feeling very comfortable... just a few more days and i will be back in singapore... dun wanna use too much energy... let pass the rest of the days in a simple way... life goes on...

200309/1324
tried to figure and write out hebe's song 替我爱你... =p

okie last non-ATEC mission tonitez... weather today not bad in bunk... good resting day today... other than loading rounds, area cleaning, pack bag, prepare TES set, carry laundry, refill water bottle, etc. ... ya very relaxing day dun u think...

oh ya lunch and dinner is predictable.... pork, chicken and veg... the pork and chicken is always sliced pork and chopped chicken respectively, just varies in the sauces... veg in always boiled then stirfry in garlie, just varies in the type of veg... anyway, the correct method of cooking veg should be stirfry then add water... the cooks isn't very proficience ya... lastly, the soup is bland... not very nice ya... love the 珍珠 rice...

210309/1016
done the mission... resting ion bunk now... obviously... if not where got time to this rubbish... just now kanna alot of mosquitoes bites... wah... the taiwan mosquitoes is upsized... string u will pain... ouch... not like singapore mini-size...

snail everywhere sia... the place i rest during mission have 3 le... ee... throw away 2 of them... the other 1 is big so i scared... better to leave it alone...

210309/2330
niteout... yeah... nothing much to see... just lotz shophouses... alotz of 泡泡茶 and 鸡扒店... have dinner with alex, rayner and MW... ordered ee-mee... expected to be dry dry 1 but turn out to be soup noodle... nice soup though bit bland too...

from 2112~2215 used the lan shop... chinese character on the screen... the cashier look a bit like kelly poon with short hair... quite kawaii ne... surfed net and research on hebe's 替我爱你 lyric.. haha... most of the characters i guessed are correct... not bad huh...

anyway there isn't much ppl walking on the street except for us the soldiers... taiwanese either have car or bike... at least a bicycle... hence this bring about the design of the shophouses... specially created in such a way that it is easy for takaway... kinda like drive-thru service... whole street is a drive-thru... interesting culture... not hard to guess the total walking distance of a taiwanese is only 200m/day... not surprising to have some clocking 100m/day... since they have vehicles and drive-thru service, i doubt there isn't much reason for them to walk...

as usual, the gal here are very 'act cute'... another interesting culture... =p

silly questions

2009-03-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

Directions:
Mark which things you have done, then calculate your score by counting the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is also your percentage.
1. [ ] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [ ] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [ ] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [ ] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. [ ] Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head
7. [x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [ ] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realised it was in your hand
9. [ ] Tried to push open a door that said pull
10.[ ] Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 2

11. [ ] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [ ] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [x] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total: 9

21. [ ] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [ ] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x] Have run into a closed door
25. [ ] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. [x] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [ ] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [ ] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock

Running total: 11

31. [ ] After someone told you that there was gum/poo on the ground, you stepped in it(is mud included??)
32. [ ] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [ ] Been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realised it wasn't plugged in
38. [ ] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [ ] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someone's shoes by accident

Running total: 16

41. [x] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realising it then left your house
42. [ ] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [x] Walked out of the bathroom with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realising it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [x] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [x] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Running total: 24

51. [X] Have done enough stupid things to take this test
52. [X] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [X] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realising it
54. [X] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place
55. [ ] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [ ] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [x] Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realised that you didn't have school/work that day.
58. [x] Forgot your own phone number
59. [x] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny

Running total: 32

61. [ ] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [ ] Said funner then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [x] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [x] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions
67. [ ] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it
69. [x] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [x] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught

Running total: 39

71. [ ] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [ ] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [x] Ran into a door jam
74. [x] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [ ] Have licked playground sand
77. [ ] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk/high when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [ ] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

Running total: 44

81. [ ] Put duct tape on your hair/someone else's hair then pulled it off
82. [x] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [ ] Sat and wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [x] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [x] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair
86. [ ] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone
87. [x] Laughed out loud in the middle of class over something you just thought up in your head
88. [ ] When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people
89. [ ] Have flung forks/spoons at people in a restaurant
90. [ ] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food.

Running total:48

91. [ ] As you are writing, you move your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [ ] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them
93. [x] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper
94. [ ] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realising it wasn't yours
95. [x] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story
96. [x] Read a whole book but during the whole book you weren’t even paying attention
97. [ ] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [ ] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling
99. [x] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100. [ ] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

Running total:52

apple theory 3: expect the unexpected

2009-02-28T19:15:00.003+08:00

expectation is a very subjective thinking. everyone has their own set of expectation.

expect the unexpected. do u noe what is the unexpected before the unexpected come out? you can only expect something to come out, but not knowing the content of the unexpected. of course if u know wat is the unexpected, the unexpected is not an unexpected anymore, is it?

so wat do u expect to learn from this script? wat is urs expectation of me?

if u are thinking rite now, then i suggest u better stop cause if u understand what i had said, good for u. if u dun understand, then just stop thinking too much. dun worry. it is normal to be unable to understand other's mind. or perhaps, my expression on the topic is totally screwed up. or perhaps u have not even bother to understand the script from the beginning, and reading for the sake of reading. or perhaps, i have been thinking too much again?

or maybe not, coz u did finish reading wat i have written. thank you for urs attention... =p

apple's theory 2: WTF

2009-01-17T22:21:00.004+08:00

Do u noe that every week is a WHAT-THE-FUCK(WTF) week?

confused?

let see... a week is make up of Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, ... n Saturday...
total of 7 days...
And, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday will be able to form the WTF...

still confused?

Wednesday
Thursday
Friday

PS: yet to think of any meanings for other days... but no news is a good news... at least not as fucked up =p

apple's theory 1: 犯贱

2009-01-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

human are just 犯贱... doing things there is always so contradicting...

y do we on the air-conditioner?
because we feel hot.
then y do we cover ourselves in blanket?

y do we watch horror movies?
because we want to get scared
then y do we close our eyes during horror scenes?

ppl tend to put themselves in 'risk' or stressful positions... and yet hide away from the consequences...

Everybody knows... Nobody cares...

2009-01-17T17:46:00.003+08:00

feels so shitty every morning feeling the terrible pain stretching aliong my fucking leg... worse still, nobody seemed to give a damn about u.. it is ur pain, ur problem...

i have pain-killer... it somehow relieve the pain... but sometimes makes me drowsy which render me unable to concentrate on my training properly...

hence, every morning i am faced with 2 choices:

1, eat the numbing pain-killer n have 50% chances of being unable to function properly

OR

2, don't take the pills n feel the pain ache all the time and pray hard that it will go off by itself... (either from getting use to the pain and simply too lazy to bother about or maintain the good posture i am having now that didn't trigger the pain)

either ways is torture to my precious body... sad... but i always choose the 2nd option as it at least prevent ppl from nagging at me, saying i am 'geng'ing... which can rather annoying compared to my fucking, terrible, shitty and GENUINE PAIN

worthless

2008-12-05T22:06:00.002+08:00

recently just hurt my back during IPPT station standing board jump... but is recovering... perhaps 1 or 2 weeks should fully recover...

during this period of time i started to wonder whether if it is worth it or not... the pay is higher than others unit by a few hundreds. however, is the few hundreds different worth the effort if u are going to suffer from the injury for the rest of ur life... luckily this time is just over strain of the lower back muscle or some ligament, and would heal in time to come... but many of my mates are not as fortunate... broken legs, hands, split-disc, etc.

getting injure during training is common. it just that, here, we are have higher percentage compared to the external units... that's why we have the risk pay... lol...

hmmm...

2008-07-29T23:41:00.002+08:00

OFF is a priviledge, not an entitlement... hmmm... so we should be glad that we were given an not focusing on how short it is... hmmm...

this week is rather relax... should i say very relax... as in monday only rehearsal for drill competition on tuesday... wednesday off... yeah... but tml need to go back camp for jump practice in the morning... uhhh... then book out again in the afternoon if still early, up to us as long as by nite come back can le... but a bit sianz the schedule... lol... better than no leave la...

thurs go jump... so if u wan see parachute, thurs morning see the sky above paya lebar... friday go east coast run 16km... clock mileage... then off from there... yeah... wanna eat MacDonald... haha...

11.51 pm

美梦成真 - 许茹芸

2008-07-17T22:59:00.005+08:00

歌手：许茹芸专辑：你是最愛

我能感觉
我像只麋鹿奔驰思念的深夜
停在你心岸啜饮失眠的湖水
苦苦想你习惯不睡
为躲开寂寞的狩猎

我的感觉
像小说忽然写到结局那一页
我不愿承认缘份已肠思枯竭
逼迫自己时光倒回
要美梦永远远离心碎

Chorus:

我抱着你我吻着你我笑着流泪
我不懂回忆能如此真切
你又在我的眼眶决堤淹水
爱不是离别可以抹灭

我除了你我除了疯我没有后悔
我一哭全世界为我落泪
在冷得没有你的孤绝
我闭上双眼用泪去感觉
你的包围

我的感觉
像小说忽然写到结局那一页
我不愿承认缘份已肠思枯竭
逼迫自己时光倒回
要美梦永远远离心碎

Chorus

我除了你我除了疯我没有后悔
我一哭全世界为我落泪
在冷得没有你的孤绝
我闭上双眼用泪去感觉
你的包围

11.08pm

This is a MTV for the movie 'What Dream may come' by robbie william... A very romantic sad story of a guy whose spirit linger between the world of the dead and living...

***** five stars romance movie... control ur tears... T_T

承担 - 许茹芸

2008-07-17T22:47:00.004+08:00

歌手: 许茹芸专辑: 你是最爱

穿上被你退还的蓝衬衫
闭上眼你就是我的
想像我还在你的臂弯
被你抱着不放

脱了不被喜欢的蓝衬衫
睁开眼我却还是你的
泪不过两行隔夜还发烫
这世上只有我们的爱
不是两败俱伤

Chorus:

我总是一个人承担
两个人的承担
就算懦弱也要坚强
就算有了梦想也要
等着被推翻

我总是一个人承担
两个人的分担
就算勉强也要坚强
就当我的心生来只
等你来伤

脱了不被喜欢的蓝衬衫
睁开眼我却还是你的
泪不过两行隔夜还发烫
这世上只有我们的爱
不是两败俱伤

Chorus x 2

10.54pm

dynasty warrior... (as requested by clem)

2008-07-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

BLIZZARD

2008-07-04T20:04:00.007+08:00

i luv blizzard... yeah... Diablo 3 and Starcraft 2 is coming out soon... looking forward... haha... just nice the timing coz my life in camp also relax a bit le... but nonetheless, if would be great if they are out now... at least no need to wait... haha...

just wanna blog...

2008-06-29T20:56:00.003+08:00

been through NS for 1 year le... learned alot from instructors, peers and everyone...
though sometime will wonder if it is a waste of time... and y am i going through this shit... lol... hmmm... it is a very interesting experience, able to do airborne... and many more... can't disclose too much...

well airborne is very fun... but damn troublesome... lol... but better than river-crossing nonetheless... damn irritating to wear wet clothing and move around... though have gotten use to it liao... either from prespiration or the rainy weather...

still hate mud... dirty sia... watever la...

love the shower in camp... though there is no heater... #$#@%$... but it mean u are clean and it refreshing... one of the five things to look forward in camp... 3 meals, 1 shower and 1 sleep... haha...

then when u start doing something, no pain no gain... do it once and for all... cause whether u like it or not u still have to go through it... u are not the first, and definitely not the last to go through it... %$@#%#@$... so many theories to motivate us our instructor come out with... but it really encourage u somehow or another... been there, done that... looking back is all memories... it have been hard going through the training... hmmm... is all in the mind... the challenge of ur mental strenght against ur physical... it about pushing ur limit...

haha... and my det mate will noe i curse and swear alot during these tough training... haha... and well thanks to their help and support i am able to be here... dun noe already been through how many times of wanna quit and post out of my unit... its not that i dun like being there... is that, not sure if really sure i wanna go through all these shit... whether if it is worth it or not... yes... at the end is satistifation in conquering wat u think is impossible... again and again... i noe i am improving... bit by bit... get strong mentally...

but really pain... pain is proof that i am fucking alive... i bleed and i breath the air... sweat like nobody business... dun noe how many times of nearly knockout... haha... but i also dun noe how i endure till now and still in one piece...

you will never noe wat we went through until you see it for urself... or rather go through it... and well, u can do it too... it all in the mind... it is just and series of mind games... either u conquer it or game over...

watever... also dun wat i am writing... lol...

9.27pm

^_^

2008-05-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

i dun wan to update...

Tired

2008-01-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

no time for myself no time for my civilian life... the recent schedule is quite packed up, moving to the company line... and even kanna turnout once recently... lol... coz ppl smoke in bunk... lol... but yet still, we have enough sleep... welcome to the real military life... haha... no longer as trainee, no more basic military training(bmt) but as soldiers, able to fight in war...

but i must say the officers and specialists are very reasonable and caring... care for soldiers... tough training usually come with rewards... canteen break or sometimes if lucky, nite out... yeah... though the life now is tougher and more packed... we still can pull through... it more on mental strength... is like u noe u can make it but the feeling at that moment is like really kanna sai, wanna just give up and quit... lol... but well i am still here... and batches before me still here too... we are all survivors... though many drop out along the way...

when will it be my turn? ? when? ?

... ... ... ...

Wat doesn't kill u make u stronger!!! - Nietzsche

纯真

2007-12-31T16:05:00.000+08:00

歌手: 五月天专辑: 人生海海

长长的路上我想我们是朋友
如果有期待我想最好是不说
你总是微笑的你总是不开口
世界被你掌握

月亮绕地球地球绕着太阳走
我以为世界是座宁静的宇宙
今晚的天空有一颗流星划过
在预言着什么

在无声之中你拉起了我的手
我怎么感觉整个黑夜在震动
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏
星星在闪烁
你怎么说

你心中一定有座浓雾的湖泊
任凭月光再皎洁照也照不透
你眼中闪烁湖面无边的温柔
那波光在诱惑

在无声之中你拉起了我的手
我怎么感觉整个黑夜在震动
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏
星星在闪烁
你会怎么说

在无声之中你拉起了我的手
我怎么感觉整个黑夜在震动
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏
星星在闪烁
你会怎么说

你已经有他就不应该再有我
世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑
我想我应该轻轻放开你的手
我却没有力气这么做
我却没有力气这么做

another version... that is equally sweet...

歌手：梁靜茹专辑：燕尾蝶

4.28pm

陳綺貞

2007-12-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

2 short clips... if u have 15 mins to spare then watch... the clip a bit no meaning...

青空 I

青空 II

very emo...

4.43pm... merry christmas...

finally... taiwan trip...

2007-12-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

okie... i finally upload finish the pics...

okie i lazy to slowly 1 by 1 put the pics into the blog...

Hence, this is the link to the uploaded photos... (click the pic...)

next week u might be able to see some taiwan video if i managed to find time to upload... but no promises... coz it is going to take lotz time...

7.53pm

过敏 - 楊丞琳

2007-12-04T20:23:00.000+08:00

歌手：楊丞琳专辑：遇上爱

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点没知觉

Chorus:
泛红双眼不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸特效药也无解
才发现
我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
oh 过敏源是对你的思念

我想我才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变
是想念没断线

Chorus

我想我才发现
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
oh 过敏源是为你流的泪

我想我才了解
就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变
是眼泪弄湿脸

我想我才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变
是想念没断线

季节一直变
但我的心没有变

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸
没知觉

8.39pm

缺氧 - 楊丞琳

2007-12-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

歌手：楊丞琳专辑：任意門

春天慢慢一點點發芽
快樂開始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模樣
幸福開始組裝

夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

無法移動的夢想
就算沒有人鼓掌
我也不會受傷
不會稀釋的信仰
心穿越磚牆
在你的身旁

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀

胸口微微的發燙
不知不覺又缺氧

8.21pm

Taiwan mood... CHIOBUS...

2007-12-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

okie... i am back... still uploading pics... so pls wait if u wan to see... think sat then the post will come out haha... hopefully sat la... i also sian to upload... before that still must shrink the dimension in photoshop to reduce the file size... very troublesome ar... then look at clem's blog... he must have damn lotz time to do up so many picture posts... salute...

anyway... i am going airborne le... tml start the training... today just past the selection... finally passed... today is my third trial... damn shag sia... after weeks to taiwan, body system all go down... barely able to meet the requirement... almost fail again...

didn't see Hebe in Taiwan... posters alot coz somehow SHE take on lotz advertisement... got tea, shirt, watches, shoes... and not forgetting their speciality... music albums... sad... haiz...

taiwan got lotz chiobus ar... u anyhow throw stone also can hit chiobu ar... good for eyes sia... they noe how to dress ba... both guys and gals... we singaporean go there like under-dressed like that... the only minority people that don't dress well is us and the ah-ma and ah-bek... lol... little yandaos... really... but taiwan guys are taller.. however, their gals need more calcium... malnutrition like that... mini size 1... and people there are not fat at all... i hardly see any obese as far as i can remember... things there is cheaper than local... round 80%... shirt roughly $10... Mac no diff... still S$6+...

7.38pm

Finding HeBe...

2007-11-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

yoz... long time no blog... okie anyway i am going to dun blog again coz going taiwan to find the cute Hebe... no la actually is going for field camp... heard is cold there... singapore this few days have been rather cold already... wonder wat is the kind of 'cold' there... hoho... brought along a couple of long sleeves, hopefully will be useful enough... hope ar... nevertheless brought along some toilet paper in case of runny-nose... nope... i dun usually use shit paper to wipe my nose... just more economical compared to tissue paper... more lasting... and of coz not forgetting it also serves it main purpose which i shall not elaborate more...

looking forward to the 4 days 'Relax-and-Recreation'(R&R) at the last part of the trip... trustworty sources have indicated that it is going to be very enjoyable... how enjoyable is for me to go through and for u to dream about... and ya bought a digicam... haha... wish come true... finally bought 1... love it sia... hehe... kk... will take lotz picssssss... sceneries, me, food, me, buildings, me, chiobus, me, yandao = me...

envy me ba... hehe... =>

PS: wan me to buy back anything, msg me... i will read it when i come back... and say sorry to u that i am back from taiwan before i have the chance to read the msg... =P

8.32pm

说你爱我 - S.H.E.

2007-10-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

歌手：S.H.E. 专辑：play

下着雨让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音

看着你看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口
隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口
也让我精神腐朽

Chorus:

说你爱我变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落让满地鲜红
说你爱我变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

下着雨让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音

看着你看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口
隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口
也让我精神腐朽

Chorus x 3

12.56am

Yotsuba&!

2007-09-30T14:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out with Clem and WZ go walk walk at bugis... then saw this cute Yotsuba-chan... haha... so with second thought bought it down... cost $28... very detail the colouring and very posable coz the joint is flexible as clem said... yeah... below are 2 pics of it; what it comes with...

Here are some poses that it can achieve... very cute sia... hehe... =P

Yotsuba with watergun

Yotsuba with ice cream

Others pics with accessories not included with the model...

to read her manga(eng) ----> Yotsuba&!

3.38pm

COMPUTER AR...

2007-09-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

finally... my com break down yesterday afternoon and i dun noe how to repair it... coz i couldn't even format it... arr... T_T

so went simlim to buy new motherboard and RAMs... that takes me 1 hrs to get there... went home DIY and change them in... yeah... new specification... my com going to hang no more... wahaha...

and end up i can't even see the screen... diao... arr x2...

is my screen spoilt too? did i install wrongly? wat went wrong?

no mood to do liao... so went and watch shows which i dun even noe how long i haven sit down in front of the BOX that shines the images... sianz half...

so today went and repair the PC... hopefully can get it fixed up... meanwhile talk to the serviceman... who then i discover is the boss of the shop... WAH ! ! !

he is no much older than me loh... at most 25 years old seriously... then he told me some rental and wat it need to open shops stuff... quite brief but very enriching...

okie... back to my dear com... it was diagnosed that one of the RAM slots is spoilt hence the system can't start... so i was ask to go change the motherboard for a new one... SIANZ...

so... no choice... went down sim lim and change... so went home grab my MP3 player and went downtown again... and finally i am typing now... hehe...

12.08am

and to You cai...
bon yoyage to UK for ur master... jia you... will miss u and i believe i am not the only one... haha... fey will be looking forward to ur return... see u online on MSN k... hmmm... wondering wat u are doing on the plane now... 13hrs sia... how u going to spend it sia... sleep, eat, watch movie, perhaps walk abit within a distance of less than 100m... sianz... haha... enjoy... =p

12.14am

LOST ! ! !

2007-08-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

have u even felt so lost in ur life that u start to wonder wat u going to do in ur future? though it seemed so far away, i can't help but start u worry wat if i can't make it in life? who is going to feed me in the future? my parents? nope... at least not for long...

i have wish to have a car and home of my own... but somehow it is not going to come without me work hard for it... nothing come for free... nothing come without a price...

i have plan to go learn culinary after NS... in which area i have yet to decide... but most likely in the field of cake and pastry making... at least something that can eventually allow to myself to set up my own shop and be my own boss... but that is going to be in my 30 if i start to plan and work of it now...

i have told my friends about it and lotz seemed keen in supporting me... but only time would tell when the time come that i set it up... perhaps there wun be even a shop... coz perhaps it was just my dream... lol... really not sure if i can save up the capital... from wat i roughly estimate... think will need at least 50k to set up the shop... furnishing, machinery, ingredients and rental... all izzit going to be small amount...

easy way out is to go leader course... at least i would get $800+/month instead of $600+... that a 25%~33% more than others... not including the combat bonus... and of course not including wat more will i get if i sign on... but that out of story coz for the moment if i wan to sign on, i can't go learn culinary...

watever...

20.00

from Mr. Clem...

2007-08-04T02:02:00.000+08:00

for some reason i go read his blog... and this is the request...

Please read the rules 1st: Each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themsleves. ppl who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as stating the rules clearly.

In the end, you will need to choose 6 ppl to be tagged and the list of their names.

Fact 1: i hate mango and peach...
Fact 2: i eat fries first then burger...
Fact 3: i like blue...
Fact 4: i dun use blanket when sleeping...
Fact 5: i can't grow fat... haha...
Fact 6: i have bunches of crazy ppls around me... especially Fey and Brotherhood...

actually need to write 6 victim names to continue this chain... but i lazy... so anyone nothing better to do can take the example and write ur owns list...

02.18am

WATEVER

2007-07-01T10:19:00.000+08:00

recommended by Vanessa
10.21am

Army

2007-06-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm... national security... lol...

wun say much on wat we do inside... but basically is physical training... and discipline... great place to keep fit and tone the muscle... and the instructors inside is very nice and food marvellous... better than outside... woo... free somemore... woo... k that all...

for those who are going in, just enjoy the life... make new friends... be positive... and time flies... NS is just like outward bound camp... just a bit longer... but we get paid instead of paying... =p

so... one week past... not really homesick... perhaps for first day... coz it uncommon people, uncommon place... but soon enough... jokes and laughter come in... suffer together... sing together... like a family... but i still miss the outside world... miss u and all...

03.07pm

Before NS...

2007-06-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

thz everyone for caring about me... haha... feel so important... hehe... T-T... miss u all...

Brotherhood
thz for the dinner on 8th June at WS's father there... it's a memorable dinner... been quite sometime since we last sit together and eat... special thz to clem for planning the nitez... and those who make it happen... okie stop here... i dun jian-wai... haha... clem always say me too like formal... brother dun say such things... love the talk after the dinner at kopitiam... it remind me of the good old days in clementi central there... we used to go there like 3 times a week... and went home real late...

SD club
thz for the farewell dinner just now at clementi... the food is nice... thz for giving me ur nite... only noe u all like a little more than half a year... wonderful bunch of juniors... didn't expect so many of u to turn up... haha... and thz for dressing up so nicely for me... (got a feeling Robin is getting scolded at now... lol... ) it meant alot to me... and thz jiejing for your letter... and remind me of pork porridge... haha... totally forgotten about it... actually it was because want to buy for someone that motivate me... and so call 'soon-bian' buy for u all also... so dun wan take all the credit... appreciate those who wish to help me carry... but if u help then become no point le... let me be selfish for once... let me be 'wei-da'... hehe... and same for the donut factory... which bring me to the next point...

AUD
a friend that meant to me more than that... continue to excel as the top of ur cohort... i am really proud of u... sorry for the trouble and pressure caused u during all this while... stay focus on your study... help me take care of urself... actually i dun need to say this... u urself noe how to get back up from a fall... somehow redundant to say this... that all... may u find someone that will make u smile...

Shuting
thz for being by my side all along... emo with me... glad to meet u as my friend... the first in poly that really connect... as if we noe each other for a very long time... though James dun agree with astrology... lol... i believe a lot in it... perhaps both of us aquarius that y somehow we think alike... that y we somehow noe how each other are thinking... emo together... crap together... good listener... may u find ur true one soon... and somedays 'tou-qing' again... think too much again... lol... a nice gal indeed... guys grab her fast... may u find ur 'ugly' half... too bad i too handsome... have faith in love... it not simple as we wan it... but it only getting better and better as we learn and learn... take care of the little 'pink'...

02.57...

PS: bringing along a book in with me... try to write everyday about my life in NS... hehe... hopefully have time to write... take care everyone...

03.06... after editing...

谢谢你的温柔 - S.H.E/飞轮海

2007-06-04T00:48:00.001+08:00

歌手：S.H.E/飞轮海专辑：play

S.H.E:
谢谢你如此温柔
捧着爱情静静等候
我的双手
其实同样在颤抖

但我能给你什么
我只是一个他遗忘的我
心被一扫而空

我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于
再次长出一个梦

Chorus:

飞轮海:
不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明

不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

S.H.E:
谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬

还没决定往哪走
才所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我

我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于
再次长出一个梦

Chorus X 2

S.H.E:
谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬

还没决定往哪走
才所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我

01.14am

能不能 - 温岚&jason

2007-06-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

歌手：温岚&jason 专辑：爱回温(新歌+精选)

jason:
第一次当我见到你
你说你紧张的忘了呼吸
记忆里我只想玩玩而已
在一起没想过这问题
你说你从来没有忘记
我们第一个夜里
我一边说我爱你
一边喘着气
sorry 我爱你
是指你的身体
我不知道你的需要
你对我的要求我从来没做到
你怎么受的了
但我总是只见到你微笑
痛苦总是往肚子里吞掉
只希望有一天我能明了你的好
我假装对你不在意
假装失去我的记忆
为了隐藏以前痛苦回忆
我选择放弃
放心去爱人的权利
因为我不相信自己不相信你
不相信一句话叫做真心真意
我选择绝情绝义
你把我当作情人
我却把你当作敌人
我的人生就是充满猜疑忌恨
不要浪费精神
在我身上寻找永恒
执迷不悔只会在你我身上
造成一道道永远的伤痕 bady

Chorus:

landy:
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
不要对我若即若离
让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
从今以后剩下的路
要你陪我走

jason:
你一定觉得我坏谁都不爱
随你去猜我是在什么心态
面对你给我的爱
你对我好我就对你越坏
但我心里一直有声音跟我告白
它说不能没有你的存在
好怪想爱却又说不出来
为何心软为何心软
为何你从不会对我心烦
已经有了答案
我却不敢去看
面对你不再反感
发现我冰冷的心感受到你的温暖
该怎么办
我现在爱你会不会太晚
你是唯一我想跟你在一起
不想再和你分离
oh~就算外面的女孩子她们叫我baby
在我心底只有一个老婆叫做vicky
不知道该怎么说
但我知道怎么做
我不会一错再错
忘了以前痛苦的过程
我们要的只是结果
你问我会一起多久
我不知道大概一辈子够不够
牵着你的手往前走
我只听到你说

Chorus

landy:
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久

jas:能不能能不能能不能够
对着我说爱我 landy:伤心泪流

landy:能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
jas:就一直到最后

01.02am

Skating

2007-05-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday skated at east coast... today went ice-skating... haha... think i am addicted to skating haha... but only noe the basic... hmmm... perhaps not even basic ba since i only noe how to go straight and a bit turning... lol... anyway... it is fun... but still not very stable can fall down suddenly that kind... need more control... ice skating need lesser energy as compared... somemore air-conditioned... so more fun to skate there... hehe but very far from home... lol... so think if i was to learn, learn inline skating ba... anywhere got wide clear space can le... easier to find... but will bleed coz rub on solid ground when fall... ouch... no ice to slide along...

anyway anyone wan go skating ask me along loh... hehe...

22.07pm

apple

2007-05-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

apple the name given to me by my sec 1 classmate's benjamin... 2nd day of school... lost was i in the new environment of the secondary school... only 1 friend as i remember was from my same primary school... perhaps there is more but think i am too lazy to go and recall... and then i was called apple instead of my real name coz it was easier... lol... even teacher started calling me by that... all well... doesn't really matter anyway...

joined NPCC as CCA coz i think the uniform is nice and love the clicking of the metal piece on the sole... kit-kit... especially when marching... but soon the metal was taken away coz someone of some school slip and fell... okie loh... with the metal piece below is kind of slippery la... drill every wed and sat... loved it... then year by year raise 1 rank... hehe... but OC too kind le... make sure everyone have at least SSGT when pass out... so those who fail the test can retest... diao... then sec 4 became commander for sec 3... at first very nervous... still remember... keep on giving wrong commands... but eventually okie liao... lol...

sec 2 finally became prefect... actually sec 1 can le... but haiz... forget to hand in file to my form teacher when he is filling up form for electing new prefect and student councillor... great timing... lol... anyway... i get in le... yeah... dream come true... still remember being interview by the head prefect and president of councillors... first qns is 'u wan be prefect or councillor?' then i say prefect... coz... i noe i dun like to talk... haha... dun noe la... then was posted duty... then at first wear the tie very paisei... especially when classmate pass by... u noe will tease u wan... lol... aiya.. soon when i used to the tease... they stopped teasing... lol... think they also used to it liao... one of the greatest challendge is not facing the seniors coz i noe got head prefect and Discipline Master to back me... hehe... is when dealing with my classmate... it is when ur relationship is so close that... u are unable to tell them off... lol... but nevertheless, still okie la... they also dun wan to cause me trouble... =)

then sec 3 joined the exco or so call Main com... upgraded badge to senior prefect... of the prefectorial broad... in charge of 'Training'... which is to train junior prefect la... fun... coz they got any problem will find u... lol... quite funny la... or rather cute... then still remember my school got detention everyday for troublemaker and those who constantly didn't hand in their work... so our duty is to stay back after school till 6pm everyday to monitor them... some regular customers... some is passer-by... fun with them... it is here that i get to noe the 'black' side of the school... which also make it easier for me during morning assembly when we have reading period from 7.20am till 8am... coz for some reason i always kanna post to N/A or N/T class to monitor their reading period... lol... then they will find all kind of reasons to dun read... go toilet la... no book... watever whichever will come out... then long enough, they start to notice i everyday bring the same storybook... lol... coz i also dun read... hehe... then learn to friend friend them... u give them face, nicely talk to them... they also nicely sit down and read... though sometimes really no choice must shout to maintain the order... lol...

one of the things i love being prefect is we have a Student Leader room... share by prefect and councillor... then everyday go into the aircon room slack, do homework... then some illegal stuff like playing games and cards... lol... that y the curtain is never open... then always stay late till 6+... then the cleaner of the school will chase us out... lol... think he also used to it... hehe...

01.22am...

我的错 - B.A.D

2007-05-17T23:13:00.001+08:00

歌手：B.A.D 专辑：梦的起点

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

Chorus:

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

Chorus

23.28pm

专属天使 - Tank

2007-05-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

歌手：Tank 专辑：花样少年少女电视原

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

Chorus:

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

Chorus

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

Chorus

13.45pm

reason for not blogging...

2007-05-13T02:48:00.000+08:00

some crap i got from my CK's blog... who haven updated his blog since then...

taking photos?
think again....
for what purpose are we taking photos for?
to remember the moments...
the great moments we have together...
BUT...
arent those time used to take these photos u have now?
why waste the great times we have together...
when we can turn them into memories
for memories last forever... photos definitely dont!
similarly...
isn't that a good reason for me not to update this blog any further?
i bet it would be...

it made me smile... lol... miss you all... anyway it is the photo that really bring back our memories shared... no doubt time is wasted... but the value of the still pic simply outweight the wastage... the moment captured by the camera is a moment in our life... a checkpoint... a indicator... that i once been with u... together...

and it will also serve as a truly good reason to blog... it will be great to blog about ur life... it will be even better to blog about ur thoughts... ur view toward how things have happened around us... be sensitive...

it really brings back memories... let continue to create more memories...

02.03am...

知足常乐 and Cherish...

2007-05-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

"contentment is the mood when life is good (知足常乐), while happiness is the sensation we experience when life suddenly get better."

all our life is good if we learn to be contented with wat we have. dun think about wat we dun have but think about we already have... u will soon discover that we do have lotz of gifts and talents... we are all winners and survivors from the start... against billions of other... sperms... haha...

there is 3 types of situation that causes us to cherish wat we have...

first, are things we have worked hard for... we have given our heart, blood, sweat and soul to get them and this is wat make them important to us... the harder we worked for them, the precious they are to us...

second, are things we snatched from other... or things we won against others... similarly to the first, we might have also worked for it... but this time round, there is a element call 'winning'... which make it even more precious as compared... and harder to achieve...

third, are things given to us by heaven or god, for those who believe the existence, but i personally prefer to call it luck... as there is little or no effort... ppl tend to not cherish them... however, on the other side, the things could be rare or already have high values to them that ppl might think it is their fortune to own them, and therefore cherish the fact of being able to own...

01.01am

clubbing

2007-05-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

ppl have start to wonder y i am going to club everyday... think many noe the reason... but anyway, at least there is someone to open the club... thz me... haha... haiz... high time to duplicate more keys and give to the main com of 07/08... who will receive keys up to u all to decide... but dun give out too many... things lost very sianz 1... especially when lending thing... dun noe who lend... who borrow... oh ya... at least 1 ppl holding key must stay in club at all time if there is someone without key inside...

anyway cleaned up the club a bit today... been thinking about it for sometime... finally did it... haha... also threw away lotz stuff... so if ur stuff is missing dun blame me... blame it on urself for putting it in club to collect dust... dun noe y enclosed area also got so many dust... think taking off shoe and slipper also no use... anyway the rubbish i threw included... sweaty and smelly t-shirts... old newspapers... cardboards which is dented, holed, folded and drew... blue plastic foams... CD-R without cover... sweet wappers without sweet inside...

oh ya... i saw cockroach today... WTF... time to clear the food and drink... club ain't a storage area for fast perishable stuff...

today also deleted games from the club com... so no more playing of game huh... dun really matter to me... but sadly for MR ah-boy... dun noe who suggest one... okie let make it clear... since ppl are not allow to use club com play games, i think no playing of game also should apply to LAPTOPs... dun let me see NEED FOR SPEED or SIM2 wor... anyway dun think will see it... dun see the ppl coming to club recently...

then 'no food and drink'... read properly... is 'no food and drink' not 'no eating and drinking'... so u are not allow to bring food and drink into club... excluding plain water or mineral water...

then 'no sleeping'... but u can lie down on the sofa... the club manual say 'no sleeping' but not no lying... so go ahead and roll on the floor if u wan... haha... wipe the floor also hor... u have my support...

then 'no playing of games' which also include boardgames... the only room that can play in the entire SAC is room SAC117... go find it... not even the officers' rooms upstair are allowed to play wor... can big 'face' the room is...

then 'no gambling'... think this is not a problem... but bear in mind... playing poker without money also count as gambling... anyway u are not allowed to play inside club anyway...

then 'no watching movie or show'... this one can close 1 eye la... dun too obvious can le... dun many gather around a screen la... listening of music is allowed... but dun blast the sound too loud... singing still acceptable... but noe ur own standard la...

then borrowing of item need a log book... so try get 1 soon... and only main com and special positions can lend the items out... so... inside log book write -
date,time,item,borrower,adm no.,contact no.,borrower's signiture,lender,lender's signiture... etc... and dun forget sections for returning as well... so hint... get big long book... dun buy small A5-size 1 pls... dun think u all are stupid la... but just in case...

prepare duty roaster... who will be in-charge of club cleaniness and open club doors... but this isn't a valid reason to skip class...

check mail... by secretary... try open every 2 days... best is daily... key with me... arr... dun write liao la... wan to noe come find me ba... dun wan flood my post... this isn't a club manual...

anyway... very sian... do u believe FOC stuff haven not even settle yet until now... even after new main com have been form liao... diao... good luck my junior... may the force be with u... call me if u need me... haha... i will try to be there... but wait at least 1 hour for me to reach u... can predict it is not going to be a smooth journey... 1 last advice send proposal for events at least 2 month before... quite long to approve proposal... very long to get $$$$$$... write minutes for meetings... need to send at least 5 mins/event... is 5 mins/event... not random pick 5 mins from all events... so more events more mins to be send... aiya watever la...

03.35am...

Memories...

2007-05-06T00:16:00.000+08:00

time is passing by... so is our lives... from sometime back we all have been moving faster and faster... so fast that we all have lost our innocent...

i remember looking forward to go primary school everyday... though i need to wake up at 5 plus every morning... to brush my teeth and wear the same old uniform everyday... going school to play soccer or marble with my friends is something i look forward to... every morning,recess and after school... used to kanna scolding and stand outside of classroom with my friends during lesson after recess coz we were all sweaty... haha... sometime can also see other soccer mates from other class standing outside their class just like us... so cute... though it is't so glamorous to be there... but who care anyway... we continued to play everyday...

and ya... toking about memories... it impossible to leave up... primary 4... the day i saw this gal... my life change... for some reason i didn't notice her before that... perhaps she transfered school? anyway she is an angel... really... perhaps this is first love or puppy love... dun noe the meaning... haha... so... everyday after morning assembly my class will pass by her class to get to my classroom... unless raining then we will detour using a sheltered route... a glimpse of her everyday is how i start my day... simple and sweet... haha... anyway i dun even noe her name... hehe... until poly year 1... thanks to friendster... haha... okie... stop here... so much for side tracking...

then somedays will go classmate house play computer, that time got hero 3 le... so can see hero 3 how long liao... and sega... and ya because of that i everyday walk home... treated as hiking... the same route... used the time for private thinking... or so call emo-ing... perhaps that y it isn't a chore... anyway not finding excuses watsoever... aquarius ppl tend to think alot... believe it... not convince go ask any aquarius... my house from school not very far away... hmmm... about 5 busstop away... so need to cross 4 crossroads... hmmm... take about 20mins to get home... hope i can bike... but my mum scare dangerous... oh well... anyway if u wan me to walk again i lazy le... actually quite far away la... dun really noe y i can walk home... and doing it for at least 2 years... lol...

00.54am

NONSENSE = NON-SENSE

2007-05-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm... feel like blogging... but dun noe wat to blog... so let blog crap...

today SD club just got a com... yeah... but no operating system (OS)... as in XP home or pro... so need to format it... thinking of combining the existing com with the new 1... as in take the good parts of the new com and put it into the old com... nvm if u dun understand... i also have difficulties explaining... haha... thinking of copying the file from the old harddisk to new hardisk... then for some reason, the old com can detect the new harddisk, but yet didn't show the new harddisk... so very sian arr... so tried to bring home the harddisk to format at home... but my lousy com keep on hanging itself... haiz... sian again... think have to bring my XP home to school tml... then no Internet... dun noe how to find all the necessary driver... diao... maybe borrow the wireless adaptor from MM club?... see first... or else bring the entire CPU back home loh... then can transefer my songs and maybe anime over hahaha...

00.10am...

u may wonder y i stopped posting the book that i read... haha the reason is because, i finished the book... haha... now reading on creating webpages... haha to enhance my blog... anyway not very useful coz... most of it i noe le... then those i don't noe is a bit too cheem or not use at all... haiz... see how ba... read roughly 30% of the book le... rather like scan through... coz the book is chaptered by tactnics... so if u noe already or no use can skip the pages to go on to the next... but this book is quite good for beginner... coz it goes step by step... even have pic to show... but if u dun noe wat is HTML or Javascript u can forget about reading it...

00.18am...

i am going NS and i haven train myself to get ready... lol... mon onward must really focus and make sure i train up le... especially go and learn how to swim arr... sianz...

2 years... it going to be 2 years... enough for a lot of things to change... 23 year old i will be went i finally book out... my 24th birthday is going to be on chinese new year... haha... no link... but there is good... coz this is a crap post...

00.24am...

suddenly remember i real-life joke that i read from a magazine... a mother say this to her son: "i have enough of u... u are full of crap." and guess wat the child reply? " mum, then u are full of prawns." yeah... another crap in this crap post... okie... think that all for now...

00.28am

Request by Ms Bernice...

2007-04-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

haha... okie blogging it now... this is the comment i gave her...

yoz… how life in TP? Teck Peng? haha…

and her reply...

tp? hmm. life in tp is okay. but life outside tp isn’t that ok. lol! but anyohow, i’m still the chirpy me.
how bout u? how’s life?

since u commented here,
i assume i have to do the evaluation for u also. haha.

Comment on this post, and I’ll:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
because i had a crush on u! :X

2 - Associate you with a song/film.
cao ge’s bao hu ni

3 - Tell a random fact about you.
apple has a few ear piercings

4 - Tell a first memory about you.
you’ve got a firm ass la :P hahas

5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
erm, apple is apple la. hahas.

6 - Ask something I’ve always wanted to know about you.
ehh. are u attached now?

7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
i neh see any user pic of urs! cos u’re not in my msn list! so quick! add me now :X

8 - In retort, you must post this in your LiveJournal (LJ). :)
blog it blog it :D

okie... and here is my ans for the qns...

1 - Tell you why I friended you.
because you are my junior in NP and SL board and many more...

2 - Associate you with a song/film.
RiChArD mArX FeAt. dOnNa lEwIS - aT ThE bEgInNin_ [aNaStAsIa]

3 - Tell a random fact about you.
very hard to ask u out... haha...

4 - Tell a first memory about you.
4th january 2003

5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
dun now y suddenly think of minnie mouse..

6 - Ask something I’ve always wanted to know about you.
other than how life in TP... hmmm... how about 1 qns/day?

7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
hmmm... dun have any also... will add you if i managed to find ur email...

8 - In retort, you must post this in your LiveJournal (LJ). :)
haha... u did it...

02.15am... suddenly feel so old... diao... noe her since 4+ years ago... ya since 2002...

Assumption...

2007-04-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

tml will blog about assumption... which i feel is 'looking on the bright side of life...' a bit like giving false hope to ourselves... haha... but can't deny it can be a useful tool to use... hmmm... open our eyes to more possibilities... anyway i blog it... u judge it... hopefully it is useful... =P

00.55am

13.44pm... lets continue...

OTHERS WANT TO SEE YOU SUCCEED, NOT FAIL
assuming others are on your side and care about your success will abate many negative thoughts about how the world views you. if you believe that people would rather see you fail than succeed, then you are forced to be suspicious, overly averse to risk, and otherwise selfconscious. with this new assumption, comments by a supervisor who may indeed have your best interests in mind are not viewed as condemnations but rather as useful mentoring. you can see immediately that if you would adopt this assumption, you would be less inclined to a hijacking the next time your boss says something about your performance.

13.58pm... my sis wanna use the com... =(

15.30pm... lets continue... haiz... =)

OTHERS' INTENTIONS ARE NOT TO HARM YOU
as we master our assumption related to the motives of others, this new assumption helps us to feel trust and safety and frees us to take risks and express ourselves. you still may want to avoid dark lonely alleys late at night, but this new assumption will help you gain a healthy perspective about others.

MOST INCONSIDERATE ACTS ARE NOT AIMED AT YOU PERSONALLY
most of us give way too much credit to the motives of others. most people are not aiming their inconsiderate acts at you. instead, they simply may be misinformed, misguided, or just not paying attention, and you happen to be on the receiving end of behaviors in these situations. more people are simply thoughtless rather than motive driven in creating a bad day for you. if you hang on to the belief that motives lie behind every action, you'll spend your day trying to figure out the grand sheme when none exists.

YOU ARE WORTHY
this might be assumption worth cultivating. too ofen people experience the opposite and, therefore, assume that others think the same. low self worth can leave us feeling defensive and hurt. in the workplace, as you practice feeling worthy, you give yourself the power and freedom to perform at your top level. as long as you believe that you are not worthy, you will have difficulty acheving your full potential.

PEOPLE WILL COME THROUGH
as you shift your assumptions about other people and their performances, you will find that a shift will occur in their performances. this is partly the result of what you're expecting to find, but it's also coming from the notion that people will perform better when we believe they will. if you think objectively about the number of people that you encounter in the workplace, most do their jobs. most do come through. it's just that we may tend to focus on the times and the people who do not. this assumption is powerful for leaders and for coworkers.

IT'S PROBABLY NOT AS BAD AS I THINK
you've got that right. put your rational brain to work, and i'm sure you can come up with many scenarios that could be worse. this new assumption will get you through many difficult moments. besides, it will help you to move from your diaster-thinking to true problem-solving. if we are overcome by catastrophizing over a situation, it render our brains incapable of doing their best work.

I WILL SURVIVE
believe that, indeed, you will survive, even in the face of adversity. assuming that you are strong will make you stronger. the power behind this assumption is in knowing that your spirit is strong. we act what we believe.

TODAY WILL BE A GOOD DAY
facing each day with this assumption will statistically improve your reality. optimism may also improve life expectancy. in a five-year follow-up with patients in this heart surgery study, optimists, as compared to pessimists, were more likely to adhere to healthier habits such as using vitamins, eating less fatty foods, and enrolling in a cardiac rehabilitation program. the optimists had increased life expectancy because of these actions. therefore, thsi assumption will provide you with a new direction for your energy. why? because when you make this assumption, you suddenly have a renewed sense of how to spend your time and you enhance your sense of commitment to your tasks.

THIS IS TEMPORARY
recognizing that most problem situations are temporary makes it much easier to recover. if we believe that our distress will be forever, then coping with the problem amy seem overwhelming. assume, instead, that our problems will pass. this create an entirely different mindset regarding both the problem at hand and the future.

I HAVE POWER TO CHANGE MANY THINGS
when we assume power, our position changes from one of helplessness to one of control. sure, some things we can't control, but, for the most part, situations at work are among the things we can improve. the outcome may depend on the methods we use to intiate and execute that action, but, for the most part, people respond positively to others who take action to improve situations. career satisfaction in particular is stronger when people take responsibility for their situations. one of the traits of happy people is personal control. happy people believe they choose their own destinies.

16.28pm... done... sense of accomplishment... other than that think i can type faster a bit le... haha... though still can't type without looking at my keyboard... train ar... kk i go work le...

hmmm... later blog on... arr... nothing to blog now... coz blog as far as i read le... lol... cya...

Acceptance

2007-04-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

okie... here it is... Acceptance...

acceptance also allows you to enjoy the journey instead of always being concerned about the outcome. it's life; it isn't going to go exactly as planned. accept that and move on. we also have to accept that other people don't always behave as we expect either, and that, too, requires aceptance. we can't, nor should we try to, control other people. although we might have people interest at heart, we have to accept that not everyone wanted our help in succeeding. we need to accept that people have a right to make their own choices even if those choices could lead to termination.

acceptance is not about resignation. there is huge difference. those who are resigned may withdraw from life, believing that they can no longer make a difference. they feel impotent in the face of life. their energy is drained, as they believe they are unable to make a difference. acceptance is another matter. it allows people to spend their energy wisely. it allows them to evaluate where to spend their energy so they can make a difference and live their live's purpose and when they should just accept the situation as it is. acceptance allows people to know the difference so that they don't become depleted in trying to control things that are outside of their realm of power. acceptance helps people to set boundaries on their effort and energy. acceptance allows people to move on to where they can contribute wisely. acceptance can also lead to forgiveness, which is a powerful force of energy.

00.45am...

Journaling (Blogging)... hehe...

2007-04-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

half an hour more before going to work... lets make full use of it...

writing is the path to awareness. i'm ot talking about anything fancy here. neither spelling nor gammer count. even logic doesn't count. i'm just talking about the act of putting words on paper. raw flow. it makes life clear. it forces us to clarify our intentons. it forces us to confront what bothers us. it forces us to face up to our inconsistencies. it forces us to take a stand. it forces us to know ourselves. write it down. yes, it's that important. the best advice i can possiblygive if you are imterested in developing greater emotional intelligence is to begin to journal every morning.

once we get those muddy, maddening, confusing thoughts on the page, we face our day with clearer eyes, we are more honest with ourselves and others, more centered, more spiritually at ease. journaling is about reflection. it is reflection at its finest. without reflection, there is no movement. without reflection it is possble to repeat the same mistakes without even realising that you are making them.

when you notice that the same lessons or the same problems keep recurring in your life, you must ask yourself, 'what is it that you haven't changed?' also, you must reread your journals to discover the progress, the repeated areas where we continually make the same mistakes, and for hints about secrets still to be uncovered.

only writing down in a journal gives you the opportunity to have access to the history of your inner thoughts. it's very powerful to have that kind of record in life.

just to add on... it also serve as a memory reminder... no matter how good our brains are, we can't possibly remember every details right... lol... by writing down it, at least it can help us recall... i keep journal, or rather diaries, that i uses them to help me take note of important memories... and it a meaningful thing to do... take out a few minutes of your time for a while and write ur life journey down now... and read it say a month later or a year later... u will find how much u have grew... and change... and no matter how sad when u write them down... when u read it again, u might find that it isn't that bad as you think it was... instead u might be that u find new prespective in life and happy that u have survived it... perhaps u might even laugh at urself for thinking and behaving the way u used to be... lol... ya... it happened to be me... lotz time... and it can happen to you... =P

17.01pm... Coming soon... Acceptance...

只想爱你 - 楊丞琳

2007-04-28T14:18:00.001+08:00

歌手：杨丞琳专辑：暧昧

我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里
天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音像舞动奇迹

你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心
别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪
也是种甜蜜滋味

Chorus:

只想爱你

当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己
可以为爱那么坚定

只想爱你

好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避

SORRY 我还是不会放弃爱你

X 2

SORRY 我还是不会放弃

Chorus

只想爱你

好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避

SORRY 我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你

14.36PM

reflection

2007-04-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

the skill to think back... the process of discovering wat u have done right or wrong...

00.58am... private time for myself to think... to understand...

13.00pm... began to understand wat is hijacking... i lose the ability to think, lose my purpose and intention... lol... oh well...

reflection is the rain and sunshine and the fertilizer that can turn life experience into wisdom. without reflection, our promising seeds of wisdom will die. with reflection, they will sprout and bear fruit that can be harvested and enjoyed daily. i know of no one area of life where this holds truer than in the area of emotional intelligence. sure, you can become a wiser gardener, a wiser cook, or a wiser mechanic with experience; the years are bound to teach you something. but to become a better parent, a better leader, a better person will require thoughtful reflection on these intangible acts that make up our human interactions. the measures are also more obsure in the latter. as i become more adroit in the kitchen, i know that i can handle a knife better than i did thirty years ago. i can see the result. yet how do i know that i am a better person?

life will provide us with ample opportunities to practice becoming better people, but reflection will help us decide what to do with those opportunities.

review and reflection of our daily interactions with others is our mental practice at becoming wiser. it is the opportunity to rewire our brains, to mentally practice different endings and to practice being our most inspired selves. it's all about reflecting on what went well and rehearsing to make the rest of it better. reflection is a wonderful way to get you closer to understanding your emotional reaction in the moment, which is the true mastery of emotional intelligence.

reflection is not about regret. sure, you will experience some regret as you reflect, but regret in and of itself is a useless emotion. you can use regret as a signal to ur brain that something requires improvement. beyond that, let it go. if you use your reflection time solely for regret, and you practice beating yourself up for your errors, you'll accomplish nothing other than to become better at self-degradation. this will not serve as a mean to greater emotional intelligence.

when we reflect, we must reflect on how others actually received the information or interaction, not what we intended for them to receive. let's say i decided to give you a lollipop. my intentions are good. i think it is something that is good to do. and feel good about doing it. so, i could go about this business of reflection feeling good about my decision to give you a lollipop. but the thing that i must consider is not how i felt about it, but how did you feel about receiving it? the 'fact' is how my intention was received. if you received it and were happy about it, then i have lived my intention. so reflection should take into consideration not only what your intentions were and how you felt about your actions, but more importantly, how did others who were on the receiving end of your intentions view your actions. i'm only suggesting that intentions alone are not enough. intentions executed into actions that others perceive in the manner in which we intend truly align us. and the only way to determine this is to reflect on how others receive our behavior.

14.05... reading through it makes me discover more about myself...

Humour and Pause

2007-04-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

okie two posts... yesterday's and today's... actually i read faster than i post le... lol... good...

humour is a powerful force for changing perceptions, mood, and emotional reactions. developing a sense of humour about yourself and life's situations can help redirect your emotional response. although research is still quite limited, prelimary studies suggest that humour may change moods that produce changes in the body chemistry that promote healing. in pain, humour is reported to be a cognitive techique for increasing pain tolerance. we should use humour to separate the truly threatening from what's not truly threatening. learn to laugh at the day-to-day things and reserve seriousness for what is really tragic, coz we tend to blow things out of proportion.

for example, how often is something in the workplace truly tragic? yes, there have been serious and tragic incidences of workplace violence. but i'm toking about everyday incidents that people react to in a way that suggests disaster. too many people spend a dollar's worth of energy on a situation that is worth about a penny. if you look at the light side, find something humorous about your reaction, you may find that life is just easier.

we can allow humour to shed light on our shortcomings. and we must admit that sometimes our shortcomings and mistakes are downright hilarious. if we could just look from afar with a playful heart, we would see that at times we are truly ridiculous. sometimes, we are the most ridiculous when trying to be the most serious. step back and appreciate the humour of you. read the comics section in the newspaper, watch the lastest TV sitcom, or go to the movies. Laugh. identify with the characters. where can you see youself? which cartoon character exemplifies you at your most absurd? where can you laugh at yourself? the ability to laugh at our shortcomings and mistakes makes our spirit light. in lightness we can dance to greater height.

use humour as a way to redirect your thinking and to divert your potential hijacking. it's fun and harmless. people who attain this ability to laugh at themselves actually feel a greater sense of control of their lives, and when they feel this control, they are able to take responsibility. remember, the humour should be directed at you or at the situation that you find yourself in, not someone else. if not just imagine humour as private jokes within yourself. be sure they stay confined in the head.

23.49pm... coming next is the techique call pause... it provided time for ur mind to calm down and thinks logically and rationally...

1st, breathe. the techique is to close your mouth and count to eight while breathing in slowly and deeply through your nose. take your breath all the way down to your belly. place your hand on your belly and feel it expand like a balloon. gently let the air out through your mouth. repeat at least ten times.

2nd, there should be some physical movemen that you immediately can revert to as you breathe. examples include taking a long sip of coffee, removing glasses, adjusting your tie, getting up and stretching, or consciously shifting your body weight.

3rd, you should have a mantra that you can recite while breathing and performing the physical movement. that mantra should be uniquely yours and should be something that helps you shift your thoughts and gain perspective. "it's okay" "smilez" "are you willing to die for it?" are some examples of mantras. whatever your risk, whether it be anger or fear or some other emotions that hold you back from living your intentions, having a well-thought-out mantra will get you through some difficult moments.

the simple actions make up this step "Pause", a deep long breath, a shift in your physical movement, and a mantra, should be practiced and rehearsed until you can instantly revert to this pattern.

00.14am... just got my posting of NS today... going in on 15th June... into the arm of Commando... haha... my parents asked me why i choose such a 'xiong' choice... i told them that it is fun... haha... dun noe what i am thinking sia... i noe i not going to sign on definitely... i just wanna make the 2 years in there interesting and meaningful... since i am going to 'waste' 2 years might as well make it a good one... memories that will follow me for the rest of my life... be it happy, sad, tired, dirty, injured(hope not), dehydrated and watever emotions... and someday say to myself that i did it... yes i survived it... and be proud of myself... and let those that matters to me proud of me... i noe it not going to be a easy journey and i noe it going to be very draining both physically and mentally... going to miss my love ones... but still i am glad this is the route i chose... my life... my their way... my their rules =p

00.30am

give myself a break today... hehe...

2007-04-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

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01.39am

confirmation bias

2007-04-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

haha... i blogged at 00.00 am... okie... nothing special... hehe... nvm i happy can liao...

confirmation bias, which occurs when you look only for information to confirm your position and ignore any conflicting data. Let's say you are shopping for a car, and you're already leaning toward a particular brand. you will tend to focus on all of the positive information you hear or read about that brand and filter negative information that does not support your leaning.

the same bias occurs in our relationships with others. if we have already decided we like a particular person or coworker, we do not judge his or her behaviours as harsely as we may someone we like less. managers have been taught for years to be concerned with "the halo effect" when preparing employee ratings. the halo effect tends to filter perceptions so that the manager perceives only positive information because he or she had a positive bias toward the employee. no wonder claims of favoritism arises. likewise, if you view a particular coworker in a negative light sometimes called " the horn effect", you will look for information that confirms your bias. from an emotional intelligence point of view, this information can have an important impact that will set the stage for your encounters with that person. each encounter is an opportunity to prove your bias. and more often than not, this information will be based on first impressions that are difficult to overcome.

NS coming... haven get letter... only noe is between june to August... wanna find some work to do... so much time yet so little time... numb... living day by day... go club play with junior... fun but i guess time to stop it le ba... kind of not very constructive to 'waste' time like that... the late part of the month have come... cable bill coming le... no bus concession anymore... until NS... but to wan to have concession... so much easier to travel around... and can save so much $$... now beginning to understand leslie claim of travelling fee is high... then think go NS need to change plastic frame spec... coz mine is metal frame one... ... tired... think i go sleep le... 00.52am

mood and dwelling

2007-04-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

today shall post 2 topics... read quite alot in club today... before ppl start come in... then today raining suddenly in the afternoon no wonder so cold... haha...

mood is the underlying effect you experience. it sets the framework for how you may asses a particular stimulus. for instance, if you are in a good mood and you spill a cup of coffee, you may laugh and joke about a klutz. spilling a cup of coffee when you are in a bad mood may cause you to become angry, lash out, and blame your spouse for purchasing cups with handles too small for your fingers. moods tend to be more a state of mind, and certain moods may tend to characterize your personality. some people are characterized as generally sullen; others are more jovial. mood can be looked on as a more long-lasting characteristic,although moods can certainly change. mood, then, sets the stage for how you may react. more and more research suggests that a positive mood makes people more helpful and cooperative in the workplace. in also reduces aggressive behaviour.

so, your mood may certainly sffect your performance on the job. your emotional reaction often depends on your mood; therefore, your mood may predict your emotional reaction to certain events.

so stay happy, be happy... now for the part 2... dwelling... dun suffer from it...

dwelling set the stage for a variety of unwanted behaviours. let's say i dwell on a particular injustice. over and over again, i focus on and speak about how i was wronged. it consumes my thoughts and causes my "egregious injustice voice" to speak louder and louder. now, if some minor injustice occurs, such as being skipped at the deli counter, all of a sudden ia am hijacked. do you find yourself dwelling on things that could influence behaviours that take you away from your intention? in fact, this dwelling may cause you to expand the situation beyond your concerns. another example of dwelling may occur in grief. through the mask of grief, it is difficult to see or experience joy, yet the more we dwell on the loss, the more we experience the loss. experiencing loss is a healthy and important rite of passage, and it takes time to heal, but the difference is in remebering the loss for the joy and satisfaction that we gained, not just for the sorrow that it brings. in the workplace, if we dwell on a loss of status or position or lament the way things used to be, we will be trapped into comparing everthing that occurs unflavourably to the past. we will be confined to a joyless work life.

01.53am... okie time to sleep... yawnz...

self-awareness and self-control

2007-04-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

yoz... that is today topic... main point is that if u wan to improve ur life, everything starts from u before u can think about other thing... haha... anyway i not a pro or something like that in this stuff... i am also learning... haha... let learn together...

without self-awareness and control, it is difficult, if not impossible, to improve one's relationship with the outside world. for example, if i am not aware of my actions, thoughts, and words, i have no basis for self-understanding. if i have some awareness and self-understanding, then i can ask, what is my impact on others in my current state? if i find that impact to be negative and detracting from my life goals, i may choose to change my actions, thoughts, or words. in emotional intelligence, this change is what we call self-control. it is about knowing and then determining the appropriate volumn level and expression for our emotions. how can these emotions enhance our relationships with others and out life goals? how can they detract from them? thus, self-awareness and self-control are interwined, as self-awareness alone will be of little service without self-control.

just to add on... in life, whatever happened there is nothing good or bad, but how u think and precept it that make it so. an example is that when someone get 50 marks for a 100 marks test... he/she can be happy coz he/she passed... or he/she can be sad coz he/she almost fail... kind of like having a half-filled cup... will u be happy that u have half left or sad that u have half gone?

01.21am

*-_-*-_- FeYaPpLe -_-*-_-* i'Ll bE tHeRe FoR u EvEn If U dOn'T nOe Me

Piggy's 21st Bday Present

Piggy's 21st Bday @ Hougang k-box wif Ajisen ppl

July ~ September 2011

April ~ June 2011

January ~ March 2011

My Love - Hebe

Going to new year le

show show

aquarius

my life

Awww

HOLE?

I have never been to me - S.H.E

dearest laopo

You Or Me?!?

letter of apology

爱我的资格 - S.H.E

time on hold

愛很簡單 - 陶喆

from one to ten equal me and you

hurt

sticky

会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

老婆 - SHE

Where'd you go - Fort minor

Moody...

Dear Galfren Baby Princess XiaoSuYun

at the beginning

missing

before or after

unicorn gundam

memories

commitment

My second off day

when i was young...

Freedom

lost of memory

compromise

会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

ORD - operational ready date

cherish wat u have

multi-tasking...

ORD mode

post-NS

taiwan pt 3

taiwan pt 2

taiwan pt 1

silly questions

apple theory 3: expect the unexpected

apple's theory 2: WTF

apple's theory 1: 犯贱

Everybody knows... Nobody cares...

worthless

hmmm...

美梦成真 - 许茹芸

承担 - 许茹芸

dynasty warrior... (as requested by clem)

BLIZZARD

just wanna blog...

^_^

Tired

纯真

陳綺貞

finally... taiwan trip...

过敏 - 楊丞琳

缺氧 - 楊丞琳

Taiwan mood... CHIOBUS...

Finding HeBe...

说你爱我 - S.H.E.

Yotsuba&!

COMPUTER AR...

LOST ! ! !

from Mr. Clem...

WATEVER

Army

Before NS...

谢谢你的温柔 - S.H.E/飞轮海

能不能 - 温岚&jason

Skating

-_--_- FeYaPpLe -_--_- i'Ll bE tHeRe FoR u EvEn If U dOn'T nOe Me